Mixed messages or not

[DavidH]

I don't know if my head's just in the clouds on this one

 

Been seeing this girl just a little... been at college, shes finishing highschool. Saw her for 2 weeks at the end of summer, 2 weeks over christmas... she broke up with her boyfriend over christmas (after asking me if she should? I don't know (she told me about him, but I told her I didnt care))... We talked on the phone a bit, but not really recently... I said some stupid stuff, maybe acted a little needy (for how long we've known eachother) we/she decided it wasn't really going to work out long distance... she said something about wanting to see me over the summer.. although I still get a text from her every once in a while, a few days ago she reminded me about little things she remembered after i sent something funny...... I try not to think of her, and occupy myself doing other things, but sometimes I keep coming back about what it could be like. We had great times when we were together, but I feel the desire isn't really there anymore. She just seems polite now, not really wanting to communicate as much... and i'm not trying to force that at all. Its a shame, because I feel like im being too nice or something... and she's the only girl I want to see

 

 

I decided today... I didn't want to not say ANYTHING... because she might feel bad (?) that might just be in my imagination.. so:

 

called her up at like 8 30, left a message - 'Hey, just wanted to talk, nothing important. have a good day!'

 

half an hour later she texts - 'Happy Valentines <3 !!!!'

 

a couple hours later i sent her my awesome haiku I wrote-

'I wrote you a haiku-

hippopotamus

thinking about *name*

I just want her to know

 

gotta get back to a final paper'

 

she texts ' Haha thanks ' after like 10 min

 

I tried to call her again, just to see whats up... left a message 'haha thanks? that was a great poem!'

 

 

 

 

You'd think if she was interested she'd want to talk, but maybe this whole valentines thing is a little too serious. I don't think anything's serious... but.... I feel like I should just back off. Did I come on too strong, unprovoked? Sometimes I just play mind games with myself after she sends a heart or something, and then doesnt really talk alot after that. just wants attention? There's nothing I can do until I come home in 2 weeks for spring/summer anyway so what does it matter?

 

I guess Ill just put her out of my mind until I get home, and ask her out on a date... and thats it.. Hope she says yes

[DavidH]

You think im in good shape since she messaged me a heart?