allthewiser Posted February 12, 2009 Posted February 12, 2009 aarrgghhh!!!! i just broke nc after 4 days. must admit that the aim of the call was to ask her when she'll be picking up the rest of her stuff sitting outside, and what to do with her mail. as we were talking i was cleaning some drawers and found some photos of us when we were happy, as well as a love note she use to leave me. aarrrrggghhhh!!! in that instant my wall of strength crumbled and i asked her how she was feeling, does she still need to talk about things etc. she wants to meet up on Mon to talk, as she still wants a 'friendship'. she doesnt have my new number so there is no way she can contact me unless in person....i hesitated about mon and she then said she had to go (she was at work), and hung up. i feel frustrated, angry...like my heart has been ripped out of my chest. i'm angry that i faltered and started to care again. but a part of me knows now there's no excuse to phone or contact her anymore...a part of me feels more determined to maintain longer nc, but i thought i was doing so well...... should i tell her to leave if/when she turns up on mon? no doubt, she won't come around but.... HELP!!!
sedgwick Posted February 12, 2009 Posted February 12, 2009 It's okay. Just go back to NC, and forgive yourself. It gets a lot easier after a while -- even if you do still think of them, you get to a point where you would never make contact. She knows she needs to get her stuff. She knows you'll be there on Monday. You don't need to contact her again for any reason. You can even leave her stuff outside in boxes and not be there when she comes by, if you think you might say something you'd regret.
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