Knight_Ctrl Posted February 6, 2009 Posted February 6, 2009 In the last week or two I think my out look on life has changed greatly in part to my breakup. I can't help but feel like my breakup was proof that no matter what I do about things the end result is going to be the same. I've started to believe in fate and that I'm just along for some grand ride. Its been liberating but at the same time I'm not sure if I've just finally gone crazy. I've started to do things just to test my theory. Got my hair dyed bright red, didn't get in trouble at work everything is the same as it would have been if I just didn't dye my hair. Decided last week to drive to Chicago this past Wednesday for a concert and just didn't tell anyone where I was going. Not even my family. Should I be seeking help, or is this new freedom good for me. I'm obviously still bothered by my breakup but at the same time I don't want her back, wont take her back, and its thrown me off of my tracks real good this time. I think I'm nuts.
Author Knight_Ctrl Posted February 6, 2009 Author Posted February 6, 2009 I'm from the quad cities, its a collection of smallish cities on the mississippii shared between IL and IA. Rock Island, bettendorf, davenport, and moline.....yep shoutouts to my QC homies, i guess lol.
GoneButNotForgotten Posted February 7, 2009 Posted February 7, 2009 Sounds like you are just trying to reestablish who you are again. You lost a part of you and now you are reshaping it to something new that you enjoy. I'm doing similar as well actually. I find myself taking chances and doing things that I used to stay away from. So what? As long as your not being stupid about the new experiences then it is all good. Roll with it and see where it takes you.
D-Lish Posted February 7, 2009 Posted February 7, 2009 Nothing wrong with what you are doing, as long as it's not self destructive behaviour- you aren't hurting anyone. When my marriage ended I acted out of character... went to Florida and got my nose pierced on the beach on a whim... my las break up just before xmas I booked a flight to Florida and took off for a week by myself- spending the holidays alone on the beach. I think it's just a bit of healthy acting out. Just make sure you don't fall into the habit of risky behaviour. Otherwise- it sounds like you are having some fun. Go with it!
irishsimon Posted February 7, 2009 Posted February 7, 2009 I got an amazing tattoo after my last LTR. You are doing something for yourself and doesnt it feel good? It means you are poking your head above the parapet and maybe you are into the next stage of letting go. Nice one. Keep going.
Goatsbreath Posted February 7, 2009 Posted February 7, 2009 try this, make your red hair a mohawk and get yourself a parrot to sit on your shoulder. Grab yourself a big sign that says "cracker a want poly" and stand out in the middle of traffic blowing a whistle at people as they drive by. Don't forget to point at them. If nothing comes of it you are truly shackled to fate
Author Knight_Ctrl Posted February 7, 2009 Author Posted February 7, 2009 try this, make your red hair a mohawk and get yourself a parrot to sit on your shoulder. Grab yourself a big sign that says "cracker a want poly" and stand out in the middle of traffic blowing a whistle at people as they drive by. Don't forget to point at them. If nothing comes of it you are truly shackled to fate that is one of the best ideas i've ever read. Keep you posted on how that goes.
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