Never-again Posted February 3, 2009 Posted February 3, 2009 It was the best day of my life, we were so happy and it ended so badly for us, but I can't understand why, even now I go over and over what went wrong but can't come to an answer. It wasn't a long romance by any means, but it was a romance never the less. The times we were apart I thought about you all the time, your smile, your laugh, and your beautiful eyes The times we didn’t have to say anything at all but just lie there and stare at each other, your face would break into a smile for no apparent reason and my heart would smile back at you. Sometimes there was no need for sleep as it would seem wasted time apart, nobody but nobody in the world matters to me like you do. You would tell me stories of your past lovers, and how they treated you so badly and I would wonder to myself ‘how could anyone treat my angel like that’ and would have butterflies in my stomach knowing that you would never get treated that way by me. We would call and text when were apart, and those little messages gave me the strength to make every day the greatest day and every song on the radio about you. I started to see things in other people that I’d not seen before, I can’t explain it but I felt so happy for myself I started to feel happy for others aswell. We spent our last day together having such a lovely time, it was the first time that you told me that you were falling in love with me and the first time I had believed it from someone so readily, we talked abut the future and about things that were so far off in the future even we knew it was like a fairy tale, but somehow a fairy tale that we could make happen. I’m confused as to why you didn’t come back to me after that day, and what I did so wrong to you. Is it possible that your love for an old flame was so much stronger that all he had to do was to turn up and your world would change so much to accommodate him? I promised I’d not contact you unless you contacted me, but its oh so hard as I think about you all the time, I see something of yours that you left here and just stare at it wondering how it all disappeared so quickly and so finally. I’m crying as I write this as I know you will never get to read it, I love you so much my babe and I love you enough to leave you to make your choices, even if they don’t include me. There's this place in me where your finger tips still rest... your kisses still linger and your whispers softly echo... It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me...............
HappyAgain Posted February 3, 2009 Posted February 3, 2009 Feeling for you but it sounds like you were used and used badly as a temporary replacement.
Ramrod Posted February 3, 2009 Posted February 3, 2009 My condolences on your loss. Sadly, the dumper gets plenty of time to reconcile their feelings with you, while their still together with you. Your not afforded the same luxury, as once they have decided to move on the do so without hesitation. I can't comfort you at all, your inconsolable right now. Take the time necessary to heal yourself. When you feel you need to reach out to her, do so, many here will advise against it, nobody is right or wrong, but if you do reach out to her, you will only be prolonging your pain, agony and suffering. Remember this much, because you can't see objectively, your still impaired as a result of your love, which will inevitably turn to hate, and then indifference, you will ache to have her return, but you were betrayed, emotionally, any relationship you have with her moving forward will be one tainted by this betrayal. You'll never love her the same again, because you will always remember her leaving you for another man. The love affair the two of you shared is dead. She never fully invested her heart in you. There was always somebody else in the picture. You were Mr. Right Now, never Mr. Right. Move on, find another person to love who will love you. Good luck.
HappyAgain Posted February 3, 2009 Posted February 3, 2009 My condolences on your loss. Sadly, the dumper gets plenty of time to reconcile their feelings with you, while their still together with you. Your not afforded the same luxury, as once they have decided to move on the do so without hesitation. I can't comfort you at all, your inconsolable right now. Take the time necessary to heal yourself. When you feel you need to reach out to her, do so, many here will advise against it, nobody is right or wrong, but if you do reach out to her, you will only be prolonging your pain, agony and suffering. Remember this much, because you can't see objectively, your still impaired as a result of your love, which will inevitably turn to hate, and then indifference, you will ache to have her return, but you were betrayed, emotionally, any relationship you have with her moving forward will be one tainted by this betrayal. You'll never love her the same again, because you will always remember her leaving you for another man. The love affair the two of you shared is dead. She never fully invested her heart in you. There was always somebody else in the picture. You were Mr. Right Now, never Mr. Right. Move on, find another person to love who will love you. Good luck. As Ramrod stated, you'll call no matter what anyone here says but it will be a big mistake and cause so much more hurt. You were never first in her heart - you were a temporary band-aid for her real heartbreak (her ex.) It hurts to hear it but so many of us have been through this and know how it feels for you now and how hard it is to believe that you weren't "Mr. Right."
Author Never-again Posted February 4, 2009 Author Posted February 4, 2009 She never fully invested her heart in you. There was always somebody else in the picture. You were Mr. Right Now, never Mr. Right. Move on, find another person to love who will love you. Good luck. But why make so many plans with me? We were looking for a new place and even discussing longer term things on the very day that her ex turned up. I know I'm probably not thinking straight at the moment, but I can't believe that anyone could plan such a thing to make it look like it was calculated so calmly.
Ramrod Posted February 4, 2009 Posted February 4, 2009 I've had women confess their love me one minute then be gone the next, figuring them out is darn near impossible. All that means is she wanted to believe in your potential as a couple but she loved you conditionally. The condition being as long as home-boy didn't show up again. Whenever women tell me they never loved me, it really helps the healing process. Losing lovers is saddest when you know they loved you too. When they never loved you, it's easy to get over them. I say "Good riddance to bad trash!">
Template Posted February 4, 2009 Posted February 4, 2009 But why make so many plans with me? We were looking for a new place and even discussing longer term things on the very day that her ex turned up. I know I'm probably not thinking straight at the moment, but I can't believe that anyone could plan such a thing to make it look like it was calculated so calmly. Isn't that truly the hardest thing in a breakup? The who? what? why? when? where? We all go through the questions, and I've learned, like many of us learned, is that we may NEVER get them answered. And even if you did get an honest to god answer, we are in a position of such disbelief, that we won't be able to accept that answer. I know what you are going through dude, as just a couple hours before the event transpired that led to our breakup (if you know my story), the ex and I were talking about immediate and long term plans, like when are we scheduling to go to the coast when it gets warmer, and making a list of "needs" when we decide to build our new house, to what kind of cut she wants on her engagement ring. This was literally up to the hour in which **** hit the fan. We just have to accept it for what it is; a relationship that didn't work, and try to move on. Truth be told, it is one of the most hardest things I ever had to do in my life.
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