Knight_Ctrl Posted February 3, 2009 Posted February 3, 2009 Guys I dont know why, but just since like 10 mins ago I've started to feel terrible. I've been so pissed about what had happened in my breakup for several days now. Even managed to ignore her on sat when she sent me a text. And now for no real reason at all I've started to hurt again.........I miss what her and I had so much, why did she have to do this to me. =(
awesomeallalone Posted February 3, 2009 Posted February 3, 2009 dont hold back the tears just let them come.... its just one of those things.... be glad that you had the strength to ignore her and take comfort in knowing that this pain that you feel right now will go away and you will feel better.... its normal to still feel down from time to time.... dont beat yourself up! good luck
Author Knight_Ctrl Posted February 3, 2009 Author Posted February 3, 2009 I just need to vent some more. Its the worst feeling ever. When you know that you could never take someone back, yet you still miss them so much. Not knowing where you're at as far as your progress for healing. When you know that its been damn near 3 months since she left you and you KNOW you should be somewhere. And when you finally do break down even after some progress you feel like you haven't gotten anywhere. I still see her so vividly in my mind, and for some reason I keep blaming myself for what happened....and I know that I shouldn't. Every single damn thing I look at keeps reminding me of her. The shower I use every day that I used with her the night I made her super. My workplace where we last kissed. I just don't know where I'm at anymore. I keep wanting to tell myself I've been doing good, but then for no reason at all I start to feel like this and it doesn't even feel like I can keep her from hurting me, she doesn't deserve to hurt me anymore.
Author Knight_Ctrl Posted February 3, 2009 Author Posted February 3, 2009 took a real hot shower, listened to one of my feel good songs. Managed to stop the sad for now..........thanks for listening to the vent fellas lol, imma go play video games now. I love everyone on here <3 *hugs*
IcemanJB Posted February 3, 2009 Posted February 3, 2009 Hey it happened to me on Saturday. I was driving and then BAM out of nowhere the PTs hit. I don't even know what triggered it, it just happened; almost pulled over cuz it caught me so off guard. But today I'm doing really well, probably as good as I've been since before we broke up. If things can take a dive as quickly as they did to you, they can turn around and get better just as quickly! Now go kill some zombies and report back to us!
OCCDAVE Posted February 3, 2009 Posted February 3, 2009 I know how u feel dude its not easy at all.I am like u what hurts the most is knowing u could never take back someone u loved so much and cared for sigh.I wish there was a switch I could flip and have no memory of my exe meh.
boldjack Posted February 3, 2009 Posted February 3, 2009 I've never been dumped on since HS. But after reading the posts from you guys and gals, who are hurting. Makes me realize what a sh*theel I used to be. I sincerely hope that you all get the partners that you deserve and that these hard times become fading memories.
not_a_happy_camper Posted February 3, 2009 Posted February 3, 2009 Knight, be proud of yourself that you are coping so well with all of this, because she's really not making it easy for you. You're probably feeling this way because she texted you, even though you didn't reply. I know I'm ok until I hear from the ex (notice THE ex, not MY ex anymore...............doesn't deserve MY). I saw one of your posts last night, you said you were considering changing your number? I think that would be a very wise move! You really are doing well. I'm 11 weeks out of a relationship now. And I was posting here last night about my progress............I was kissing someone else at the weekend. That took a lot for me, and I thought I'd feel guilty, like I was betraying said ex. but I didn't at all, because there's nothing left to betray. I feel a hell of a lot better. In saying that....................I cried just this morning. You're going to have these ups and downs. Embrace them, don't fight them. I cried this morning, because even though he's no longer the last guy I kissed, he's still the one I want. But will not take back. I think it's impossible to take back someone who can hurt you so bad. So i'm no longer entertaining the idea. What kills me now...........is knowing that at the time, even though I was hurting so much, with a little patience, we could have truly TRIED to fix things, even if in the end it wouldn't have worked, I hated leaving knowing we'd never tried. but that wasn't my fault, ex obviously didn't care enough. So I still have unresolved issues three months later. But they'll never be resolved. I'm hoping day by day I'll care less about these things. Knight, you will too. I"ve been reading your posts, and you clearly deserve a better person than this piece of work. don't feel bad about letting it get to you. feel it, push through it, and you'll be the better for it.
lonelygurl Posted February 4, 2009 Posted February 4, 2009 you are not alone.....I am not anywhere any better and it's been 2 months for me. I can't believe how much I miss him. I go through so many emotions and last week had a lot of anger and self loathing but I'm still missing him and crying and really lonely. I almost broke down and emailed the last few days. It took a lot not too. I was going to post on here but just didn't have the energy. I'm going through a lot of medication changes and my depression is at an all time high/low and now I'm sleeping a lot. This grieving/missing them really sucks:sick:
lonetiger Posted February 4, 2009 Posted February 4, 2009 Knight..just let the tears come...and have a box of tissues in reach. It's been a month for me now, and just when I thought I was done with the tears...I heard a song that reminded me of him, and I just cried for about an 1/2 hour. While tears still ran down my face, I hopped in the shower and washed them down the drain. I pulled myself together and hit the gym for one of my best workouts in weeks. Stay strong...you are doing good and having a breakdown here and there isn't a bad thing. We are here for ya:)
Template Posted February 4, 2009 Posted February 4, 2009 That happened to me last night. I was driving home from work then all of the sudden... BAM... the PT come streaming down my cheek. Like you I thought I was doing good, that I got my emotions in check.. but I don't know, I'm obviously still going through a lot of pain. I just want this emotional rollercoaster to be over.
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