exclusive. Posted February 2, 2009 Posted February 2, 2009 Well, guess this is a follow up to she only loves me when shes drunk. I couldn't stay away, I felt miserable what with losing my job before Christmas as the company fell into financial trouble, my Grandad died Jan 12th and I was very close to him - plus moarning my ex. It gets too tough sometimes and I cave. So, I went to go and see her as "friends" but we ended up getting close, we kissed and cuddled - had a laugh. It felt amazing. I felt like I was almost back with her again, I was so close I could smell it! Well, we climbed into bed and did more kissing and cuddling - even go a bit sexual but she couldn't go through with having sex - she pulled back we had a massive argument about it. We thought we were just "friends" yet, she was kissing and cuddling me, holding my hand etc. We ended up going to bed back to back. In the morning, she gets up earlier than me and im faced to the wall with my back to everything else, including her. She faffs around, gets back into bed and begins to cuddle me affectionately again. So, I forget about the night before and try and be happy - especially as she has never given me affection without me having to lead first since our break up in Decemeber. Short lived, I take her and her friend to town as they have to get some work printed for university. She was cold all day and really treated me like a friend now. So, we get home and she knows I have been a miserable git all day - for obvious reasons. Everything comes out and guess what, she finally admits she doesn't love me anymore. Even though, she said she enjoyed touching me sexually the night before. She says she just knows she doesn't love me in the same way before. I don't think I have even flown so high, only to have my wings cut off and fall head first into the ground. I have gone NC now, and the whole ordeal upsets me so much, that when I think about it and her, my love for her - overwhelming sensation of sickness smacks me and even gagging. I didn't realise someone who once loved you, could be so cruel. Whoever reads this and is going through a break up - please, do not break NC because eventually it gives you a mental break down. I almost drove my car into a brick wall had it not been for my family. If its trully meant to be, the ex has to decide on their own to come back to you, otherwise - your just signing your own grave. I now know this through first hand experience.
kizik Posted February 2, 2009 Posted February 2, 2009 I'm sorry for what you went through/are going through. Now that you know the particular brand of game she plays - stay away from her. I am sorry you had to learn this lesson the hard way. But hey, now you know.
wooha Posted February 2, 2009 Posted February 2, 2009 I feel you brother! I dealt with the same exact issues. I have been NC for over a month, and I feel much better. I'm actually getting on with my life-for the most part anyways. My ex called me late Friday night/early Sat. morning around 4am. I did not hear to answer, nor did I return the call, until this eve(like a stupid ass). She did not answer, so I'm positive she was drunk dialing me, wanting a booty call. Oh well, I'm still ok. I havent heard her voice for quite some time, and I'm doing alot better. Hang in there my friend, it gets better. I thought of killing myself but I'm glad I did'nt. She's not worth it, and your ex is'nt either! *Never say someone completes you, we must love ourselves first. Look for the person who compliments your completeness!*
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