Goatsbreath Posted February 1, 2009 Posted February 1, 2009 Well today I went back to the apartment we shared our life together. She moved out around January 1st and I moved out shortly after. I moved in with a friend because I could not afford the place on my own and I'm trying to regain my feet financially. The plan was for her to get a job and then we would move forward together but shortly after she found a job, she found a new man and left me. I don't even get it, hes separated but still married, has two kids and is over 10 years older then her. Anyway, I went back to clear out the place this weekend and then today I cleaned it. God it was difficult. She lives about a mile away from this place and I am now about 20 minutes away where I live now. Its hard to put myself that close. I broke down while I was cleaning a few times. It just hurts so bad and I came across a lot of memories and I still can not believe she left me. Why I wonder, I thought I offered her so much. I'm a good guy and I have a clean slate, Im 33, shes 30, I have no kids, im not married....I treated her good. To me it feels like she chose unstable and probably not going to amount to anything over what was a future family. When we first were starting to date she was all about a family and kids. Later on she started telling me that living together felt to much like marriage and she wasn't even sure she would make a good mother, could she handle kids? I don't know what I'm looking for here, I guess I just needed to vent on this day. I remember last superbowl I was with her and we picked up her mom from the airport. Me and her mom ended up watching the superbowl while she went up stairs and watched a movie because she don't like sports. No that I think about it that's messed up. Her mom just arrived for a 2 week visit and she wouldn't even sit and watch the superbowl with us, make conversation etc. I don't know why I'm so sad about her. Sometimes I think I spoke about her to coworkers and friends, family in such a better light then she deserved. Hmm.....oh well, here's to today.
hunkahunkaburninlove Posted February 2, 2009 Posted February 2, 2009 Get back in the game. Even if you don't feel like it. You are a hot commodity A man who is not a commitmentphobe. The ladies will be knocking down your door. E harmony, match. The world is your oyster. Get on face book or my space. 2 months from now you won't remember her name.
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