LucreziaBorgia Posted February 1, 2009 Posted February 1, 2009 Update from this thread: I have breast cancer Medically, I am doing ok. Nearly back to 100%. The hot flashes stopped, and my period came back twelve days ago. It is still coming back. If it continues on this heavily, I will have to start taking something for anemia. The oncologist said that it just happens that way on Tamoxifen sometimes. The only long term thing that happened is that one of the cancer drugs slightly damaged my heart. I knew that it could happen, but it was more important to me to live with the consequences than die without them. I have an appointment in Feb with the oncologist to monitor the heart thing, and to make sure my cell counts are ok, etc. My hair is finally growing out 'normally' now - the right color, etc. It isn't long enough now to cut the 'chemo growth' off but in a month or so I will buzz down my hair again to get the hair color/chemo hair off my head. I got the last of the dental work finished a couple of weeks ago. It took a YEAR to clear up all the damage the chemo did to my teeth. I ended up with three teeth pulled, a root canal, six cavities filled, and a few chipped/weak teeth filled in and shored up. That chemo was no joke. I'm happy to have a normal set of teeth now. The chest tattoo is still just an outline. I needed to pay down some expenses before I could get it filled in, and I'm planning on having it finished by the end of February. Personal stuff... ah yes. Well, the reconciliation did not quite go as planned. (sep)H is seeing someone. Its all good. We get along great, have no problems living together, and it is nice to be under one roof as a family even if we aren't husband and wife exactly. Besides, I have my own crush or two. Nothing will come of either of them though. I'm just not ready for anyone to see me naked. The scars are gnarly but I'm not bothered by those, but where they cut the nerves under my right arm to get all my lymph nodes out there is this one little wobbly bit that I hate. It isn't huge and I doubt anyone would notice it, but I do. One of these days I'll get that fixed. Until that day, crushes stay crushes and clothes stay on. At this point I'm lusting for some good kissing. I love the passion behind a good first kiss. :love::love: Not that there are any real contenders, but still it is fun to think about.
Lishy Posted February 1, 2009 Posted February 1, 2009 Oh wow LB, I am so pleased you are doing good now! You have been through the wringer though haven't you!! You are so brave!! One day you will meet the man that you will not mind showing your scars to, but until that day just be happy for you and how far you have come after this awful disease!! Good for you honey xx
Geishawhelk Posted February 1, 2009 Posted February 1, 2009 LB, you have no idea how much I admire your chutzpah and verve. Stick with it, and yay you for being such a horny, brassy and up-front survivor. I hate this quotation, don't ask me why, but they say that "what don't kill ya makes yew stronger". You're plenty strong, and I take my hat off to you lady!!
whichwayisup Posted February 2, 2009 Posted February 2, 2009 Didn't see this thread, glad you posted it but sorry to hear about you and your H. Good though that you two are still friends. Yup, one guy is gonna love licking and touching your scars..And when you have that first passionate kiss - You gotta post about it in details! You're definately a hero in my books!
Meaplus3 Posted February 2, 2009 Posted February 2, 2009 LB, I'm so glad to hear your health is good. You are a very strong woman and I have so much admiration for your courage and just over all loving personality. You love life and it shows. I wish you the best of everything in life. You will get that long passionate kiss one day soon..I just know you will. Mea:)
grogster Posted February 2, 2009 Posted February 2, 2009 LB, keep on truckn'. I'm happy to hear of your successful recovery, and I'm sad to hear of your failed reconciliation. Although, if I had to pick one... (My ex offered to reconcile with me over Xmas, I politely declined). Sometimes you can't go home, again. Keep us updated, LB. And whatever you do, keep posting. For many of us you are a shining light.
Author LucreziaBorgia Posted February 2, 2009 Author Posted February 2, 2009 Haha... not long after I posted this thread one of those crushes I mentioned expressed an interest in going with me to see a movie this weekend! We'll see where that goes...
Trimmer Posted February 3, 2009 Posted February 3, 2009 Haha... not long after I posted this thread one of those crushes I mentioned expressed an interest in going with me to see a movie this weekend! We'll see where that goes... To the movies, of course! Are you that out of practice??? Cogratulations and the very best of luck on your continued rebuilding process. If you apply even a part of the same strength you've shown so far, you'll be better than ever.
Lizzie60 Posted February 3, 2009 Posted February 3, 2009 LB.. you soooo deserve a great life... I wish you the best.. I'm sure, with your courage, you will find someone who will love you for who you are.
Star Gazer Posted February 3, 2009 Posted February 3, 2009 I'm so happy for you, LB. You're really an inspiration...
quankanne Posted February 3, 2009 Posted February 3, 2009 am very glad to hear that the hardest part is overwith, though the part about the dental just blows my mind. A family friend told me about chemo and dental problems, which I never realized ... I guess because everyone's so focused on the treatment? here's to 2009 being a much better year for you health-wise *clinks imaginary glass o'bubbly*
HappyAgain Posted February 3, 2009 Posted February 3, 2009 Best wishes. I had cancer 14 years ago and know what the whole ordeal feels like. You have a great attitude and spirit and that's what counts the most as far as I'm concerned. I too have scars and thought it'd be a problem with someone new - guess what, if they really love you, they don't even see them.
amaysngrace Posted February 3, 2009 Posted February 3, 2009 It's so nice to hear you doing so well. You have such a great attitude. Yay you!
Author LucreziaBorgia Posted February 4, 2009 Author Posted February 4, 2009 am very glad to hear that the hardest part is overwith, though the part about the dental just blows my mind. A family friend told me about chemo and dental problems, which I never realized ... I guess because everyone's so focused on the treatment? Yeah, the chemo cocktail I was on was the strongest you can get and it did a number on me, and a number on my teeth. Part of the problem is that your mouth gets very, very dry and without the enzymes in the saliva the bacteria go wild. I also had deep sores on my gums (one of them ended up needing a small skin graft) and I couldn't floss. There was just too much risk of bleeding too much, and further damage to my gums. I used a special toothpaste and mouthwash, and a special soft toothbrush and it helped but did not *entirely* help. I'm just glad my mouth is back to normal! The better to kiss with. :love::love:
baker23 Posted February 5, 2009 Posted February 5, 2009 Hi LB, I'm fairly new to this forum, but I read about your story, and I want to say that you are an amazing woman with an inmese strength; you are and inspiration and and example of to many of us who feel defeated by the little challenges that come our way. I'm really glad you are doing well, and I really hope you find that special someone who makes you feel wonderful and beautiful, like the woman you are. Take care.
quankanne Posted February 5, 2009 Posted February 5, 2009 The better to kiss with indeed! but ouch, that just sounds so painful
Author LucreziaBorgia Posted February 5, 2009 Author Posted February 5, 2009 Yeah, it was painful and I HATE going to the dentist, but with all of these trips there, my phobia is pretty much gone. I won't be lax about checkups either - I plan to take very, very good care of my teeth. As for personal, well let's just say things went downhill fast and we'll leave it at that. Needless to say, all bets (and dates) are off apparently. Generally speaking, when someone goes from frequent (and I am talking 5-10 messages a DAY) to none abruptly after suggesting a second meeting, then guess what... "He's Just Not That Into You" Ironically, that was the movie we were going to go see. I'll be taking myself, as originally planned. I'll eat lots of popcorn (no butter - gross) and probably go out to dinner on the way home. I'll keep that date, only I'll be the only one on it. No passionate kissing in my near future, sorry to say. A few of my other friend guys are going out with me tomorrow night though to a martini bar here in town. It will give me an excuse to dress up, bring out the killer heels, and nurse a very, very fine drink. Its all good. Sort of. With my hormones coming back to life I am randy as hell. It is very irritating.
blind_otter Posted February 5, 2009 Posted February 5, 2009 Heya LB good to see things are going well. You are one fantastic lady. I hope little B is doing well. I remember when my Dad was still on chemo it was pretty bad, the lining of his mouth started to erode and the whole thing got swollen. That chemo stuff is intense. You should write a book.
Author LucreziaBorgia Posted February 6, 2009 Author Posted February 6, 2009 I have some stuff in progress that I am writing. Slowly but surely its coming along. Oh, and I was TOTALLY wrong about that guy. Completely and totally wrong. Tonight was fun. Tomorrow night will be fun too. And the night after that.
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