Frankasy Posted January 26, 2009 Posted January 26, 2009 Let me try to summon my story of me and the girl I fell in love with although I've made a few threads about it before I went into NC so some of you might know it. The big plan for me and her to get together was in the New Year's. She doesn't live in the same place as me so I don't see her often. Anyways when I met her it was like she was a totally other person. I was very patient with her(Usually I'm not with anyone) but things were getting only worse. Instead of being heaven, those days I spent with her(From 30 December-3 January) made that image I had of us two into something no one would never even imagine. I eventually snapped and changed my attitude towards her on January the first and after the third I haven't talked to her anymore, no text messages, no phone calls, no MSN chats, no emails. Nothing. Anyways at first it was kinda hard but eventually I got better although sometimes when I thought of her(Which I used to do a lot before this happened) I got a bit worse. Anyways during my NC time I have changed my mind constantly. At first I was angry and seeked revenge but a week later all those thoughts faded away. Afterwords until lately I have just been waiting until more time passed and I would just throw everything in her face through a phone call, the way she acted with me, all the things I had done for her etc. Well now I really don't wanna talk to her anymore, I don't even wanna hear her voice when I call her to throw everything at her. But sometimes I think that staying silent will make me look bad, as if I don't know what to say on my current situation while if I tell her everything I won't look like the bad guy although I'm very sure that I'm not. Anyways what should I do? I'm really confused. I really loved this girl, my first and so far only one. I really don't know what happened between us, it was like I got hit from behind and fainted until I woke up somewhere else with no memory. Spending those 6 days in the end of the year with her and with her behaviour made me realize that she wasn't so perfect after all but sometimes I miss that life I had when she meant everything to me. Anywasy I would appriciate your opinions on this and sorry if I posted this in the wrong section but I wasn't sure where it would fit in.
EmperorR Posted January 26, 2009 Posted January 26, 2009 continue nc, never iniate nothing you are going to say is going to change the situation, and you will kick yourself afterwards for breaking nc. 23 days is amazing I know all to well how hard it is.
Author Frankasy Posted January 28, 2009 Author Posted January 28, 2009 continue nc, never iniate nothing you are going to say is going to change the situation, and you will kick yourself afterwards for breaking nc. 23 days is amazing I know all to well how hard it is. Hmmm well ok guess I'll continue my NC. Although I have to ask, does it get hard anymore? It was kinda hard the first week but afterwords pretty much everything was downhill from there. Well I feel bad for myself after a month, 2 maybe?
Zammo25 Posted January 28, 2009 Posted January 28, 2009 Hmmm well ok guess I'll continue my NC. Although I have to ask, does it get hard anymore? It was kinda hard the first week but afterwords pretty much everything was downhill from there. Well I feel bad for myself after a month, 2 maybe? I am also on day 23 MC and its getting harder. I just want to send a text saying I still love you and miss you but I know no good will come of it. I sepnt 3 and a half years with her in my life and now she has gone, finished with me my life is empty like a massive hole is there. I am just surving 1 day at a time as its hell.
Author Frankasy Posted January 29, 2009 Author Posted January 29, 2009 I am also on day 23 MC and its getting harder. I just want to send a text saying I still love you and miss you but I know no good will come of it. I sepnt 3 and a half years with her in my life and now she has gone, finished with me my life is empty like a massive hole is there. I am just surving 1 day at a time as its hell. Actually now I'm on my 26 day. Although I will never forgive her for what she did, still a part of me wants to call her. I know that things now won't work out anymore but I seriously say that I enjoyed my last 5 months, starting from the day I met her until January the first of this year. Well I guess the only thing we can do is confront each other. Well actually if I were you I wouldn't text her for another reason which is that you might look desperate, in other words the ball will be in her court if you are the first to break NC.
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