Peter_pan Posted January 25, 2009 Posted January 25, 2009 ok last night, was really drunk. decided to see if my ex still used same email and thought maybe i would send an email. so i sent one saying is this still your email? then i had completely forgot about that email all day or didnt expect anything back.. and i got an email back but it was from her current bf the one she left me for. i read the first line forcing myself not to read the rest as i know it would probably hurt. it said yes it still is her email and then i deleted it straight away being careful not to read the rest. feel kinda stupid for sending it and least i know she isnt willing to speak to me anyway. obviously our whole re was broken after it ended and thats the way it will always be. that does make me sad. i think, hmm should i have read it. but tbh nothing good would have been in it i bet. and if i had got my mates to read it and tell them not to tell me what it said, it would only make me want to ask them wat was in it. i hope thats the last of it. it was stupid to email her. ouuch. i have learnt that lesson. raaa i learnt that it really is the past and i shouldnt go there. ever.
alphamale Posted January 25, 2009 Posted January 25, 2009 i learnt that it really is the past and i shouldnt go there. ever. when its over its over...
Author Peter_pan Posted January 25, 2009 Author Posted January 25, 2009 very true. i wasnt looking to get her back or anything. just wanted to see if maybe i could speak to her like an old friend. Oh well. not sure what to think now. all i know is breaking no contact is not a good idea. silly me. i feel really bad like i cant forgive myself! really odd. i think he replied cause i gave her the impression i hate him and what she did to me. anyway. i hope not to hear back from either of them which i shouldnt cause i didnt reply. can you block a name on msn so i dont receive an email from him again
eDave Posted January 25, 2009 Posted January 25, 2009 This lends validity to going NC for "you". You contacted and now you feel like crap. Look on the bright side, you know you screwed up, perhaps got the proof you needed and can now accept it. Stop the alcohol. It is NOT GOOD in this situation. It only depresses you and makes you do foolish things.
Author Peter_pan Posted January 25, 2009 Author Posted January 25, 2009 yeh i dont know what came over me tbh! i completely forgot i had even sent it. part of me thinks i did it half asleep! yeh think its best to just leave it. if she ever ever wants to talk she can find me on fb. through my sister.
eDave Posted January 25, 2009 Posted January 25, 2009 Hey, I don't want to come across as preaching about the alcohol. I just share a similar mistake with you. For me, I know to live and deal with the pain and alcohol sometimes helps me with that. So I know I am sounding like a hypocrite here. I can walk around my house kicking and screaming about her. Yelling at her. Hell, I yell at myself. But ultimately, since the wound is so fresh, I will reach out and make a fool of myself...
Author Peter_pan Posted January 26, 2009 Author Posted January 26, 2009 oh yeah believe me i know it was the drink. i really dont know what made me do it. part of me thinks i should have read what he said. but it confirms to me that she wants nothing to do with since she got him to reply to it. and thats that. she is really pathetic getting him to do that. and yeah it was stupid of me to send anything. but o well. its been a year her bday is coming up so i wanted to see where the land was lying
BackonTrack2 Posted January 26, 2009 Posted January 26, 2009 LOL DAMN........... Good thing you deleted it....... Its funny that I'm reading your post, I drunkenly sent a text to my EX too, a few months later, some dude started calling me, but never said who he was, called twice too. I called back ONCE, I have 100% no idea if it was her BF or NOT, but it was strange.... to the point where I laughed to myself and said "SHe's out there, ****ing around again, whoring herself again, cheating on the dude she left me for again" Her behavior hasn't changed, I actually laughed to myself. But yeah, when its OVER, its OVER. As about the CURRENT GUY, don't worry, she'll leave him soon enough, he'll be heart broken just like you. Be happy your not with her. Oh yeah, since she got him to REPLY, she's NOT over you. Otherwise, she would of just deleted the email and not mention it TWICE unless you were like harassing her or something. And ONE email in like a 2 month period = non harassment. Also she's not a good person to even have her current GUY reply back to you AND, the current guy is MORE of a FOOL, to even REPLY to the EX's email. Thats a female's trait, he's love sick, she has him at her beck and call. As about reading the email, NO DON'T DO IT, DO NOT DO IT........ It will bring you more pain that you care to bare, just deleted it, trash it, 100% get rid of it and never think twice about it, write if off as "Yep, its really over, that just put the final nail in the coffin, there is no hope, time to move on!" oh yeah believe me i know it was the drink. i really dont know what made me do it. part of me thinks i should have read what he said. but it confirms to me that she wants nothing to do with since she got him to reply to it. and thats that. she is really pathetic getting him to do that. and yeah it was stupid of me to send anything. but o well. its been a year her bday is coming up so i wanted to see where the land was lying
Meaplus3 Posted January 26, 2009 Posted January 26, 2009 Don't beat yourself up over it. Well all make mistakes frome time to time it's part of life. Just try and forget about it. Mea:)
Author Peter_pan Posted January 26, 2009 Author Posted January 26, 2009 LOL DAMN........... Good thing you deleted it....... Its funny that I'm reading your post, I drunkenly sent a text to my EX too, a few months later, some dude started calling me, but never said who he was, called twice too. I called back ONCE, I have 100% no idea if it was her BF or NOT, but it was strange.... to the point where I laughed to myself and said "SHe's out there, ****ing around again, whoring herself again, cheating on the dude she left me for again" Her behavior hasn't changed, I actually laughed to myself. But yeah, when its OVER, its OVER. As about the CURRENT GUY, don't worry, she'll leave him soon enough, he'll be heart broken just like you. Be happy your not with her. Oh yeah, since she got him to REPLY, she's NOT over you. Otherwise, she would of just deleted the email and not mention it TWICE unless you were like harassing her or something. And ONE email in like a 2 month period = non harassment. Also she's not a good person to even have her current GUY reply back to you AND, the current guy is MORE of a FOOL, to even REPLY to the EX's email. Thats a female's trait, he's love sick, she has him at her beck and call. As about reading the email, NO DON'T DO IT, DO NOT DO IT........ It will bring you more pain that you care to bare, just deleted it, trash it, 100% get rid of it and never think twice about it, write if off as "Yep, its really over, that just put the final nail in the coffin, there is no hope, time to move on!" cheers man, its interesting you view it as though she is not over me. no i havnt harassed her thats the first email ive sent in over a year. i did however see her in a nite club at x mass for first time in a year and so had my say, she didnt like it and got upset ran off. i felt bad so tried goin after to say sorry, but glad ur happy bye bye. but she didnt want to listen so i tried to stop her and she pushed me away. again was drunk but meh. thats the thing i think she isnt over me and cant hack it . i reckon it would have been a nasty email anyway but then i also think it could have been a civilized one. and you know what i had a strange feeling that it would be him that replies not her. i hope they dont last last but its looking that way and meaplus yeah your right few !
BackonTrack2 Posted January 26, 2009 Posted January 26, 2009 Think about it dude, she couldn't even be civil with you in the club, clearly she still has feelings unless you were like being a jerk or smoething..... Anyway, the reason I say, she is NOT over you is because I had a girl like that, I would have sex with her, and her boyfriend would TEXT her, and he would say things like "I am sudcidial, I miss you so much yada yada" and she would look so annoyed like "I hate him, it was all about him, and I didn't like having sex with him, and I knew he was cheating on me so its OK for me to do it as well and He wanted me be a trophy wife and I didn't want that" So I'm like, "OK... I don't care... why are you telling me......" so anyway I just took the phone and began having sex with her, eitherway, I ended up falling in love with that girl... Guess what though??? Guess who she had sex with when I was away on vacation???? That same guy she hated..... so, yeah don't feel bad, everyone makes mistakes, and WOW.... She really had her current boyfriend reply back to you???? THATS just crazy... She had to FEEL SOMETHING, inorder for her to go through that length to have him actually reply as opposed to just deleting and ignoring your email, espcially since you have not contacted her in a year, its almost as if she is over-componsating as oppposed to a standaridzed approach which is IGNORE/DELETE. So just smile in the back of your head, that she still feels SOMETHING, whatever you did dude... a year after ****ing the new guy... She still has feelings for YOU??? You must of been doing something right.... But, U know... U shouldn't wish anyone bad will... And I doubt they will last if after a YEAR, A YEAR, she still has feelings for you...... Na... they won't last...... She'll probably leave him when the new bloke comes along.... cheers man, its interesting you view it as though she is not over me. no i havnt harassed her thats the first email ive sent in over a year. i did however see her in a nite club at x mass for first time in a year and so had my say, she didnt like it and got upset ran off. i felt bad so tried goin after to say sorry, but glad ur happy bye bye. but she didnt want to listen so i tried to stop her and she pushed me away. again was drunk but meh. thats the thing i think she isnt over me and cant hack it . i reckon it would have been a nasty email anyway but then i also think it could have been a civilized one. and you know what i had a strange feeling that it would be him that replies not her. i hope they dont last last but its looking that way and meaplus yeah your right few !
Author Peter_pan Posted January 26, 2009 Author Posted January 26, 2009 Think about it dude, she couldn't even be civil with you in the club, clearly she still has feelings unless you were like being a jerk or smoething..... Anyway, the reason I say, she is NOT over you is because I had a girl like that, I would have sex with her, and her boyfriend would TEXT her, and he would say things like "I am sudcidial, I miss you so much yada yada" and she would look so annoyed like "I hate him, it was all about him, and I didn't like having sex with him, and I knew he was cheating on me so its OK for me to do it as well and He wanted me be a trophy wife and I didn't want that" So I'm like, "OK... I don't care... why are you telling me......" so anyway I just took the phone and began having sex with her, eitherway, I ended up falling in love with that girl... Guess what though??? Guess who she had sex with when I was away on vacation???? That same guy she hated..... so, yeah don't feel bad, everyone makes mistakes, and WOW.... She really had her current boyfriend reply back to you???? THATS just crazy... She had to FEEL SOMETHING, inorder for her to go through that length to have him actually reply as opposed to just deleting and ignoring your email, espcially since you have not contacted her in a year, its almost as if she is over-componsating as oppposed to a standaridzed approach which is IGNORE/DELETE. So just smile in the back of your head, that she still feels SOMETHING, whatever you did dude... a year after ****ing the new guy... She still has feelings for YOU??? You must of been doing something right.... But, U know... U shouldn't wish anyone bad will... And I doubt they will last if after a YEAR, A YEAR, she still has feelings for you...... Na... they won't last...... She'll probably leave him when the new bloke comes along.... hmm well it was civil at first then i just had a go at her cause at the time she told me bout him and her through an f'ing email when i was away! so if shouting at her the truth that she left for someone she knew for 3 weeks and i stuck by her for 3 years is being a jerk then i guess i was a jerk lol i asked her why she hadnt contacted me all this time her reasons where that she thought i wanted her back...and that she heard i was happy. i told her yeah i am happy but not at the pain YOU caused me. yeah man she got him to send one. i wish i had read it now ! could always send one again saying could you send that email again cause i deleted it without reading. and i dont think she does have feeling for me, she just got him to send something to tell me to leave her alone i bet. its like she dont have a voice of her own. when you say i must have done something right, well i was her first love, she was mine. so its probably just that. damn why didnt i read it lol not that it would change anything. it dosnt matter either way. maybe one day if she isnt with him i might be able to have a conversation with her.
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