Education and expectations.

[toself]

For years, I've been interested in graphics and design. I felt sure that it was something I'd be doing for the rest of my life, and I had no doubt about it either. It felt a 100% natural for me to apply for 'media and communication' when I got out of high school. So I did. It still felt right through the first (and partly the second) year of education. Now I have greater doubts about it. Since last year, I've also been very interested in psychology. I've read books about it, and I've been helping my friends with their personal issues - and liked it. Several of them has actually told me directly that I should become a psychologist, since I obviously know what I'm doing.

 

Just a few minutes ago, I went outside for a break from homework, and to get some fresh air. There I was, with a great outlook to the world. Bright stars shining above me, and the peaceful sound of winter surrounding me. It inspired me to think about everything. I realised that I have no interest whatsoever in what I'm doing at school right now. The last few months, I haven't been doing my homework, and I've skipped school several times. My parents are disappointed, and we argue a lot because of my lack of interest in school. My teachers also tell me I have to work harder to get where I want, but I mostly ignore them or answer them short and rather rudely. Until now I haven't been sure about why I'm doing this. I know it ruins the relationship between me and my parents, and everything that's supposed to build my future.

 

I just got out of quite a complicated relationship with quite a complicated girl. She is the kind of person psychologists would help. I thought about it outside, and it made me realise that behind every miserable and depressed individual, there is something beautiful only waiting to be discovered. I want, more than anything else, to be able to help people find this inner beauty.

 

I've been producing and recording music for a while now, too. I've always considered myself quite a creative person, but I think my creativity now leans more to music than to everything we do in school. I want to continue doing music, but only as a hobby. But as for design and media, I just don't feel any presence of motivation anymore when I go to school. I, like everyone else, want to make my family proud of what I do. I just don't see how I can do that with continuing this line of education. There's 5 months left of this schoolyear. I think I'd be better off with dropping out of school now, and starting over next year. I know it's important to like what you do, if you're ever going to do it right.

 

Like I mentioned, my parents aren't happy at all with what I'm doing. They're tired of having to argue with me to make me do my homework - and so am I! I want to do my homework out of free will, but not this homework. It just doesn't feel right anymore. Now I feel like I need to tell them. I just need to know how. Will they listen to me if I put it like above? I need them to understand why I want this.

 

In one way, I'm kind of sad now for wasting almost 2 years with the wrong education, and also for letting myself and my family down by doing it. On the other hand, I'm incredibly happy for having discovered what it is that I really want in life, and I hope you'll be able to help me accomplish it. Thanks for reading, I'm looking forward to hearing from you.

[jerbear]

Get the degree first. You'll be surprised what is required out there even for creative types.

 

5 months is short. Get the degree, then switch to work in music.

 

Also, it is not easy to get a job out there as there are lots of competition for jobs and salaries. If you can I would suggest staying in school for another semester or two and take music related courses.

[You'reasian]

For years, I've been interested in graphics and design. I felt sure that it was something I'd be doing for the rest of my life, and I had no doubt about it either. It felt a 100% natural for me to apply for 'media and communication' when I got out of high school. So I did. It still felt right through the first (and partly the second) year of education. Now I have greater doubts about it. Since last year, I've also been very interested in psychology. I've read books about it, and I've been helping my friends with their personal issues - and liked it. Several of them has actually told me directly that I should become a psychologist, since I obviously know what I'm doing.

 

Just a few minutes ago, I went outside for a break from homework, and to get some fresh air. There I was, with a great outlook to the world. Bright stars shining above me, and the peaceful sound of winter surrounding me. It inspired me to think about everything. I realised that I have no interest whatsoever in what I'm doing at school right now. The last few months, I haven't been doing my homework, and I've skipped school several times. My parents are disappointed, and we argue a lot because of my lack of interest in school. My teachers also tell me I have to work harder to get where I want, but I mostly ignore them or answer them short and rather rudely. Until now I haven't been sure about why I'm doing this. I know it ruins the relationship between me and my parents, and everything that's supposed to build my future.

 

I just got out of quite a complicated relationship with quite a complicated girl. She is the kind of person psychologists would help. I thought about it outside, and it made me realise that behind every miserable and depressed individual, there is something beautiful only waiting to be discovered. I want, more than anything else, to be able to help people find this inner beauty.

 

I've been producing and recording music for a while now, too. I've always considered myself quite a creative person, but I think my creativity now leans more to music than to everything we do in school. I want to continue doing music, but only as a hobby. But as for design and media, I just don't feel any presence of motivation anymore when I go to school. I, like everyone else, want to make my family proud of what I do. I just don't see how I can do that with continuing this line of education. There's 5 months left of this schoolyear. I think I'd be better off with dropping out of school now, and starting over next year. I know it's important to like what you do, if you're ever going to do it right.

 

Like I mentioned, my parents aren't happy at all with what I'm doing. They're tired of having to argue with me to make me do my homework - and so am I! I want to do my homework out of free will, but not this homework. It just doesn't feel right anymore. Now I feel like I need to tell them. I just need to know how. Will they listen to me if I put it like above? I need them to understand why I want this.

 

In one way, I'm kind of sad now for wasting almost 2 years with the wrong education, and also for letting myself and my family down by doing it. On the other hand, I'm incredibly happy for having discovered what it is that I really want in life, and I hope you'll be able to help me accomplish it. Thanks for reading, I'm looking forward to hearing from you.

 

Nice!

 

Can you recommend any books for beginner accoustic guitar? I'm trying to teach myself.

[norajane]

There's 5 months left of this schoolyear. I think I'd be better off with dropping out of school now, and starting over next year.

 

Why drop out? Can't you change your major to psychology and start taking the classes you need for that? Or get prerequisites out of the way? People change majors ALL the time, sometimes several times, before they settle on on.