Knight_Ctrl Posted January 20, 2009 Posted January 20, 2009 *I apologize for my horrible grammar in my title, I'm pretty upset right now.* Doing this mostly for me, but I'd like to see what you guys would have to say to your ex. Here I go. Posting it here, for the sake of not actually giving it to her. Trying to be strong today...having a hard time. Look, when you broke up with me you told me your biggest fear was that we wouldn't' be able to be friends or that I would end up hating you. And I was stupid at the time and told you that I could never hate you (yeah right). I also told you I could never be your friend. And I can't. I loved you even more than I was capable of knowing I was able to love. You ALWAYS told me that would would never leave me, break my heart, or otherwise do exactly what my previous exs did to me. Well congratulations, you've managed to one up them. Not only were you able to get me to all but sell my soul to you, but you tortured me for a month and then to top it all off went out with my friend. You CHEATED on me with him. Yes I know you never had sex with him (as far as I know anyway) but you started dating him even before we broke up. How do you expect me to NOT hate you, when your being this selfish uncaring bitch I've never met before. You turned into this whole other person, who was willing to do anything to get what she wanted at the cost of everyone's feelings but yours. I hope you fall in love with this guy and he ends up being the douche bag I expect him to be. I hope that he breaks your heart worse than you ever broke mine, and I hope you NEVER get over it. And I hope even worse for him. I'll never take you back, ever. As much as I miss what we had, that's all I'm able to do now. Is miss it, because you are dead to me. Or what was you is dead now. You are the only thing I regret in my life, and christ if I could just never see you again. I would be the luckiest guy on earth. ............damn that felt good. I may post later if I come up with more stuff I'd like to say.
DSM-IV Tom Posted January 20, 2009 Posted January 20, 2009 HELL yes. I love to see this real ****. None of that bs rainbows and butterflies "I wish her the best even though she broke my heart" bs. That's not human nature, and such sugar coated bull S*** is nothing but bs. I don't wish BAD things on my ex but I CERTAINLY don't wish her selfish ass anything good. Time to make a little poem/song/rap about her. You told me forever, you promised what you couldn't keep Now you're sad you're alone, may I remind you that what you sow you reap? Now you think about me, miss me, wish you could keep Wish you could keep me strung along, but I already took the leap I'm outta your arms, and I'll never return All your love, its metaphorical of the bridges I've burned You hurt me but I'll thank you for all the things that I've learned I turned you down because I've prepared for the day you'd return Why so surprised, I shut the door in your face? Sick of these fights, teared fill nights, wakin up with hate I said goodbye, and goodbyes what I meant So save your weak ass attempts, this loves bent, and now this path's in cement So turn around, walk the hell away, you've got nothin left to say You chose to walk in this descent, you're sad but now I'm content Go ahead and cry, but remember this was your way, so now I turned you away Because I've built up common sense, it's you I resent Bet you didn't think I'd turn out so strong, but I mean what I say, 100 percent.
curiousnycgirl Posted January 20, 2009 Posted January 20, 2009 Ooh this is a good thread, I reserve the right to come back, once I get my brain together to say what I need to say. Right now I'm still all f'd up
IcemanJB Posted January 20, 2009 Posted January 20, 2009 Oh hell yeah! This is an awesome thread...hang on, I'm going to pretend to actually do some work for awhile while I think about what I'm going to say...
IcemanJB Posted January 21, 2009 Posted January 21, 2009 Well here it goes: Broken promises. That is what hurts the most. I opened up for you; describing how I was hurt by other girls in the past. You promised you would never do that. I'm not naive enough to completely believe that, but I gave you the benefit of the doubt. I'm the complete opposite of clingy and needy, and that isn't too common. You should thank the lucky stars that I am as geniune and nice as I am. You were so happy and proud to introduce your mom to me a short time before you broke up with me. Most guys would have blown up at your ridiculously confusing actions during the breakup. I kept my cool and tried to see your point of view. Of course I was pissed and deeply hurt, but you were obviously hurting enough by your incessant crying that I didn't need to fan the flame. Be glad I simply told you to leave me alone after the breakup when you constantly tried to ease your guilt (or whatever the hell you wanted) by contacting me. I could have been (and maybe should have been) MUCH nastier, but that is just not who I am. Be VERY VERY thankful of that. That is VERY rare. You have said over and over that you feel awful; even though I never really said anything in response to it, YOU SHOULD FEEL AWFUL. That bull**** you pulled on me is so incredibly immature. Grow the **** up. Well I've sure as hell moved on with my life. I don't graduate until May and I've already got a salaried job lined up. I'm closer than ever with my friends and family. I'm in the best shape I've ever been in. What the **** have you done the past few months? From the sounds of it, the same old [stuff she's embarrassed about] you were reluctant to even tell me during the relationship. I could describe to the wonderful people of LS what that stuff is, but again I'm too considerate. The bottom line is: be thankful. whew, I feel better. Damn I wish she could read this...
PandaStillLovesBunny Posted January 21, 2009 Posted January 21, 2009 I took your bull**** for six ****ing months. It's over. Good riddance to bad rubbish.
Dmoney28 Posted January 21, 2009 Posted January 21, 2009 For god sakes woman, make up your mind. Its been 5 months, and now you tell me you need time to heal....i asked for time to heal and NC a month ago, and you started to get upset. But now you want time. ouy ve.....ok, have all the the time you want sweetheart...all the time you want, and get at me later..sheeeshh...
Template Posted January 21, 2009 Posted January 21, 2009 You are a self-righteous, miserable woman. I hope you never find the happiness you think you deserve. You think you know everything, but in your ignorance you truly don't know anything. You are a self-absorbed, selfish woman, that just invites misery, and unhappiness into your life, and you choose to surround yourself with people that helps feed that. You play mental games in your personal and professional life, and you always wonder you don't get what you think you should in both. You are judgemental (yet don't want to admit it), while hate being judged. You say "people suck" all the time, especially when you don't get YOUR way. I sacrificed some of my own personal happiness for the greater good of OUR relationship, all the while you were only concentrating on YOURSELF. I've always had US in mind in everything I did, and for you it was always about YOU. I've always tried to communicate, yet you never wanted to-you shut down and watch even more tv. You always said that a relationship shouldn't be such hard work. I'm sorry you can't tear yourself away from your daily 8hr+ TV sessions to spend 15 mins just to talk. Truly hard work. I've tried to address whatever complaints you have, but when I ask if there's anything I can do to make you happy, you always responded with a "I don't want to talk about this right now", or "It's something I have to figure out myself". You don't respect what I have to say a lot of times, because you don't think I know, yet when you ask a "professional" they often say the same thing I just did. You never apoligize when you are clearly in the wrong, and you never say thank you-ie. when I take it upon myself to do the grocery shopping because you didn't want to come and help because TV is on, instead of thanking me, you yell at me for buying the wrong things. The worst part of it all is when I needed you the most in a literal life or death situation, you consciously didn't want to take me to the hospital, and threatened to change the locks on me when I slammed the door in haste. Then YOU broke up with me for calling you "evil" for those very actions. You yell at me for the stupidest little things-especially when I had good intentions in mind. I've been nothing but tolerant of your "issues", and your depression, YET YOU TREAT ME LIKE CRAP. I hope you are the "Cat Lady" you fear you may be one day, because you truly can't, and don't need to be in any relationships. People don't suck, YOU SUCK, and EVERYONE deserves better than you. They say good things happen to good people, how about asking yourself why good things don't happen to you.
Author Knight_Ctrl Posted January 21, 2009 Author Posted January 21, 2009 I really love seeing these replies. Is there a way I can request a Mod to change the title of this thread so everyone doesn't think I'm stupid? lol I need to do some more venting. You told me trust was one of the most important things ever, and I did trust you. I trusted you when you told me TWICE in November that I was who you wanted to be with. I trusted that when you told me that you have no feelings for Z that you were just friends and that you LOVE me. Then what, you break my heart throwing away everything we had and could have had just because you wanted to be with this other guy? It isn't me that you love, its the prospect of something new. **** you, if I would have known you would have been just like the last bunch of girls I dated I wouldn't have even bothered to help get you out of that abusive relationship I rescued you from. You have just as many problems as he did, you just fail to see it. I was always there for you. When your dad hit you, when your crack head mom went missing. I gave you everything, and you couldn't even bother to give me a fair chance. Which is far less than I deserved. I can't wait till you do the same thing to Z that you did to your last b/f and to me. You just get tired of relationships after 8 months don't you. Then you have to go out of your way to create problems that aren't there so you don't feel like the huge bitch you are. What ever you have to do to wash away any responsibility you have of being the one who is creating these problems. Whatever you have to do so you can sleep at night. Its no skin off your nose, you've got a new man. Someone you can leech off of to make yourself feel secure for the next 8 months, then you can tire of him and go on to find someone new. Stupid succubus whore.
lilmrcheerful Posted January 21, 2009 Posted January 21, 2009 "...your loss I guess, you had the best thing ever at the palm of your hands, a year ago, you were dumped by your ex because he told you he didn't love you and didn't show you any affection or love at all during your relationship, you were having an unsettling time with your own parents and you were so unhappy that you just wanted to crawl up and die. We got together and you really liked me, you wanted a relationship with me and soon after you wanted to live with me because you were having such a wonderful time with me so I said you could move in and treat the home as your own home, your own freedom, I took you everywhere, spoilt you to death, bought you everything you ever wanted and needed and treated you like an angel, I couldn't have given you any more attention of affection if I tried, you lacked NOTHING, I really loved you, I have always been honest, committed, dedicated and faithful to you. You wanted to move in so I agreed and I took you in. You had some personal issues which affected the intimate side of things but I was willing to support you in that and not be judgemental, but you never opened up to me. You were then contacted by your ex in which you claimed you had no feelings for but yet it seemed obvious to me you still did because you just couldn't let it go or leave it alone when it was affecting our own relationship, you said you wanted to remain friends with him even though his only intention was to try and win you back, I always said that would be dangerous and that his motives are questionable, just because he couldn't move on and realised he couldn't find someone else he thought he would try and look back to see if you would still be there, and like the gullible and inexperienced person you were, you fell for the trap and now you decided to go with him even though you still to this day haven't admitted in doing so. I hope you're happy with a guy that's never loved you and only wants you because he's lonely, good luck with that, I only wanted the best for you and what every caring and loving person ever wants for their lady... you will never ever find someone like me again who would love you unconditionally and who treated you with respect and like a true angel that you didn't turn out to be....your loss"
Author Knight_Ctrl Posted January 21, 2009 Author Posted January 21, 2009 "...your loss I guess, you had the best thing ever at the palm of your hands, a year ago, you were dumped by your ex because he told you he didn't love you and didn't show you any affection or love at all during your relationship, you were having an unsettling time with your own parents and you were so unhappy that you just wanted to crawl up and die. We got together and you really liked me, you wanted a relationship with me and soon after you wanted to live with me because you were having such a wonderful time with me so I said you could move in and treat the home as your own home, your own freedom, I took you everywhere, spoilt you to death, bought you everything you ever wanted and needed and treated you like an angel, I couldn't have given you any more attention of affection if I tried, you lacked NOTHING, I really loved you, I have always been honest, committed, dedicated and faithful to you. You wanted to move in so I agreed and I took you in. You had some personal issues which affected the intimate side of things but I was willing to support you in that and not be judgemental, but you never opened up to me. You were then contacted by your ex in which you claimed you had no feelings for but yet it seemed obvious to me you still did because you just couldn't let it go or leave it alone when it was affecting our own relationship, you said you wanted to remain friends with him even though his only intention was to try and win you back, I always said that would be dangerous and that his motives are questionable, just because he couldn't move on and realised he couldn't find someone else he thought he would try and look back to see if you would still be there, and like the gullible and inexperienced person you were, you fell for the trap and now you decided to go with him even though you still to this day haven't admitted in doing so. I hope you're happy with a guy that's never loved you and only wants you because he's lonely, good luck with that, I only wanted the best for you and what every caring and loving person ever wants for their lady... you will never ever find someone like me again who would love you unconditionally and who treated you with respect and like a true angel that you didn't turn out to be....your loss" holy **** that was beautiful....i cried a little =*(
lastnight Posted January 22, 2009 Posted January 22, 2009 **** you. Just **** you for not only walking out on me at the time you knew i'd feel it most, but for the gutless reasons and way you ended it. **** you with your 'it's not you it's me' act. **** you for not having the guts to say you just didn't feel it anymore or speak your mind. **** you for cheating on me, and **** you for me not being able to prove it but always knowing deep down by your remorseless shady and elaborate cover up stories. **** me for giving you my heart, giving you complete devotion, time, genuine 100% interest in your life, your family, your dreams and ambitions. **** your own insecurities that you're too stubborn and proud to ever confront that makes your logic or lack of it, laughable at times, and the rest just pure "let me bang my head against a wall until I pass out unconscious so I can escape this misery" frustrating/impossible to be around. **** your stupid dimwit friends who you place above anything else, but actually bring you down to nothing more than drunk, boring shell of the person you could be. **** you for making me shrink and become a shadow of my former self, a person that I now grimace at how weak and wet he was. **** you for not having the capacity to love me back the way I did you. **** you for pulling the wool over my eyes and duping me into believing there could never be anybody better, when in reality anything would be better than you, now that I actually have my ****ing eyes open. Just **** you in general for wasting my precious time........**** you, it's over.
Hersheys Posted January 22, 2009 Posted January 22, 2009 I'm so tired of feeling miserable over not having you. I should have known that you are just going to screw up my life. You were a waste time.
Author Knight_Ctrl Posted January 22, 2009 Author Posted January 22, 2009 I wanted to spend forever with you. You'll never know how bad you've hurt me. Ever second I've spend away from your love has been torture, I would rather die a thousand times than feel like this for another second. I want to be with you so bad.......I know I can never do that, I feel sick. I'm shaking, I've felt cold since the day you left me. Every day I wake up and my first thought is how much I miss you. Nothing has been able to make the pain of this go away, not the booze, not the vicodin, not anything. I've tried so much. My thoughts of you feel like they were just yesterday, but I know that they were so long ago. Why can't I just let you go, why can't I not love you so much. Why can't I be a cold heartless bitch like you. Nothing has gotten better since you've left me. My life has gotten progressively worse. I miss you so GOD DAMN much M. I can't take you back, and thats the part that kills me. Any chance of us is dead........and thats the part that hurts more than anything else.
curiousnycgirl Posted January 22, 2009 Posted January 22, 2009 Are you happy now? Are you proud of your behaviour? I was there for you for 4.5 years. When you lost your job & everyone told me I should walk away, I was there When you "forgot" to send your cobra papers, I put you on mine When you started the first company, I supported you When you needed to build a local network, I brought you to mine When you started the second company, I supported you When you started working for that guy, who wouldn't give you the contract, I wrote the first draft When your dog needed medical treatment, I took care of it When your granddaughter was born, or your cousin got married, or you wanted to go to that reunion, I paid for the trip When you needed new tires, I bought them for you For 4 years since you lost your income, I have given you moral support, and paid for whatever we did together - without complaint When I started to get scared, and told you I needed your support and needed you to be there for me more than one day a week, you took a powder. Rather than discuss it with me, you simply didn't call, and blocked me on IM. You just walked away Are you happy? Are you proud? (as I wrote this I realized, OMG I'm the freaking giving tree - OY)
DSM-IV Tom Posted January 22, 2009 Posted January 22, 2009 You heartless ***** you ate my KFC. I hope you stay up at night having nightmares about eating my double recipe extra crispy meal. I hope you suffer for the rest of your life for taking the last peice, and I hope it haunts you like a restless ghost until you pass out from exhaustion and have nightmares of eating my chicken. You stupid *****, heartless *****, filthy, sad, insane idiotic *****. MY chicken.
JShimmy Posted January 22, 2009 Posted January 22, 2009 Dear Heather, Its been a month since we broke up and there are so many things that I wished we cleared up.. I want to first off tell you that you hurt me so much that today I still am in pain... I knew for a couple weeks that something in our relationship wasn't right and had a feeling you were doing something behind my back... I still will never know if you cheated on me physically, but I atleast know you have emotionally... How could you start another relationship while still in one? Were you really that scared and insecure to be alone? I know I went behind your back and checked your voicemail, but I'm glad I found what I did.. A co worker telling you that he absolutely loves you and to call him when you get a chance on your vacation!! How long was it really going on?? Is this why you wouldn't let me come to AC with you on your company trip when the plans all along were for us to spend time while you were there... You hurt me so much and I think so much less of you as a person.. When were you going to tell me that you had feelings for a co worker??? I have no respect for someone that doesn't have the decency to get out of a relationship and start a new one before hand... It would hurt so much less if we just ended it the right way because thats what I wanted also.. But to find out you were doing things behind my back, hurts me more than anything in the world... I can't believe I took you back the first time after you were already texting other guys sexual refrences two months into our relationship.. You are not the person I thought you were and I hope to find someone exactly the opposite of you... You will no longer be in my thoughts or mind because I respect myself too much to allow you to bring me down... James
curiousnycgirl Posted January 22, 2009 Posted January 22, 2009 The last time you held me in your arms, you told me you loved me and could not imagine life without me. 8 days later you blocked me on IM and stopped calling. You call that love? I guess you figured out, pretty damn quickly, how to live without me
not_a_happy_camper Posted January 22, 2009 Posted January 22, 2009 I gave you my virginity this time last year........................... Can I have it back please?
Author Knight_Ctrl Posted January 22, 2009 Author Posted January 22, 2009 Dear Heather, Its been a month since we broke up and there are so many things that I wished we cleared up.. I want to first off tell you that you hurt me so much that today I still am in pain... I knew for a couple weeks that something in our relationship wasn't right and had a feeling you were doing something behind my back... I still will never know if you cheated on me physically, but I atleast know you have emotionally... How could you start another relationship while still in one? Were you really that scared and insecure to be alone? I know I went behind your back and checked your voicemail, but I'm glad I found what I did.. A co worker telling you that he absolutely loves you and to call him when you get a chance on your vacation!! How long was it really going on?? Is this why you wouldn't let me come to AC with you on your company trip when the plans all along were for us to spend time while you were there... You hurt me so much and I think so much less of you as a person.. When were you going to tell me that you had feelings for a co worker??? I have no respect for someone that doesn't have the decency to get out of a relationship and start a new one before hand... It would hurt so much less if we just ended it the right way because thats what I wanted also.. But to find out you were doing things behind my back, hurts me more than anything in the world... I can't believe I took you back the first time after you were already texting other guys sexual refrences two months into our relationship.. You are not the person I thought you were and I hope to find someone exactly the opposite of you... You will no longer be in my thoughts or mind because I respect myself too much to allow you to bring me down... James Holy **** man........this is like a carbon copy of what happened to me....I..just damn, Also lmao of at DSMs fried chicken post, I'm wondering if that actually happened...if so, hilarious.
irishsimon Posted January 22, 2009 Posted January 22, 2009 I'm not angry at you for being strong and moving on but I am upset that you didn't offer that strength to me when maybe it would have helped. You were a bonus to my life ..and you know what? i cant think of anything more to write in this sentence as you have blown my head to ****ing bits. You had better not text me in a few weeks just to say hi. You know I will reply. But i know you won't as you flicked off the switch. To know you wont contact me pains me right now but if you do contact me maybe you arern't the strong woman I thought you were. When you said your feelings had flat-lined it was the end. It was nice of you to offer closure. You care. Just not enough to see it through. A flat line is an indifferent line. Neither up or down and thats as far away from love as you can be. Go in peace sweetie and I can do the same. II'm sure we will both love again.
Author Knight_Ctrl Posted January 23, 2009 Author Posted January 23, 2009 and you know what bitch, i'm having a fantastic day today. I'm gonna play video games when I get off work and not think about you one damn bit.
Author Knight_Ctrl Posted January 23, 2009 Author Posted January 23, 2009 the happy feeling goes away when the pills wear off.......****.
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