MWC_LifeBeginsAt40 Posted January 19, 2009 Posted January 19, 2009 My best friend is the one who brings me up when I'm feeling down. She's also the one who can bring me down when I'm feeling great. We've been close friends, best friends, for 30 years. She has a sister who I am also close to but our lives took different paths for a few years and we drifted apart, but are now all involved on the same level. We are all women, of course, men don't have this kind of drama! Lately she's been giving me a hard time about an area of my life that we are both involved in. I know she wants me to excel as she has stake in this venture and I am giving 110% like her and the others, except I am struggling with my performance, and her comments, lectures, glares, and lack of confidence in me are crushing my spirits and making it even more difficult to do my "job". The harder I try the worse it gets. We are getting close to crunch time. I find I am thinking of all the wrong things, worrying what they think, not concentrating on the right things, and then I get treated like a 5yr old who just started walking yesterday! I am so tired of it but I can't quit yet. I can't give too many details but I hope this is enough for any of you to help me get past the negative feelings, to get my confidence back, and gain control of my life. They know nothing of my latest romantic affairs, so that is not the issue, unless it's karma and I am getting what I deserve. But others in this field have done what I've done and still excelled so it can't be that, unless it's my subconscious. What do you think?
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