hoartiosans Posted January 16, 2009 Posted January 16, 2009 I was with my first girlfriend for only a little over a month, and it's been about the same length of time that we've been broken up, and I still have feelings for her, and although I've accepted that she's not coming back I still have periods of depression, especially now that I'm getting ready to go back to college, where I last saw her (she broke up with me over a text). I keep thinking of all the places we were together, where we had lunch together the first time, where we had our first date, even my dorm room will bring up all sorts of memories since we spent most of our time together there, and how I am dreading seeing them, as well as the chance of running into her again. I hate this feeling that it's all over, I don't know if I really loved her, loved her, but I felt something great for her and she just gave up on our relationship. She hurt me really badly and I honestly don't understand why it hurts so much. I keep saying I don't want her back because she's crazy (Thanks Tom), immature and irrational...but then I do, or at least I want the relationship back I really don't feel like I could ever trust her again if she offered to get back together because I would never know if the wheels would be turning in her head to run again. This was staring to feel easier, but all it took was for me to imagine her with someone else and now I'm back here again, crashing and burning wishing for her back. I hate myself right now, I know there's no reason to but I need to hate someone for this, and hating her feels wrong because for some ridiculous reason I still care about her. She texted everything she said about why she was dumping me, I try to picture her, and put the words in her mouth, but they don't fit I could never imagine the girl I loved saying those things to me, she seemed better than this. I want this all to be a terrible nightmare and when I go back she'll be there waiting for me...but then I snap back to reality, and I sink again. When will I feel better? I'm sick of missing this ridiculous girl.
DSM-IV Tom Posted January 16, 2009 Posted January 16, 2009 That's cool, I'm sick of you making the same topic every single day. You dated the girl for a month for God's sake. STOP!!!!!!
Author hoartiosans Posted January 16, 2009 Author Posted January 16, 2009 That's cool, I'm sick of you making the same topic every single day. You dated the girl for a month for God's sake. STOP!!!!!! I am too man.
DSM-IV Tom Posted January 16, 2009 Posted January 16, 2009 Then control your impulses and stop making the same topic? Do you think we're holding out on you and have some secret information to make you better, that we won't give you unless you make a certain number of the same topic? Seriously, dude, I'm starting to think you're the crazy one. Snap the hell outta it.
alwayssme Posted January 16, 2009 Posted January 16, 2009 u dated her for a month? for how long have you known her & liked her?
Knight_Ctrl Posted January 16, 2009 Posted January 16, 2009 look man..........do you mind if I ask how old you are? Just wondering, but I know that age can play a huge roll in your issues. I'm only 20, and I know I'm not all old and wise as DSM (just cracking a joke bro, you've been a huge help) but seriously. Unless Im mistaken this was your first relationship you were really invested in, if you're young is it too hard to believe you have a hell of a long time ahead of you to move forward and find someone else? Maybe even several someone else's? Just think about it.
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