griffinchicken53 Posted January 16, 2009 Posted January 16, 2009 it's probably safe to say i'm depressed right now. back when i had some health issues people would talk to me, show concern, ask me how i'm doing. now that i'm healthy again, i don't get that attention anymore. i can't get a job and still live at home with parents. so once i have a job and am out on my own, are people going to stop talking to me. I worry that being negative is the only thing that makes me interesting, and people only talk to me out of pity, and once i'm happy they might think "he doesn't need our sympathy". because if that happened i would slip back into being depressed, not to get people to talk to me again, just because i would be alone and nothing good comes of that.
Nikki Sahagin Posted January 19, 2009 Posted January 19, 2009 Oh my gosh, I sometimes do this! I feel when i'm happy and content - people don't bother so much. They don't check if you're okay, they don't look after you. They think you're happy enough that you can be fine by yourself. When i've been depressed and really down, i've had people REALLY be there for me. Make me food and take me places and sit and talk with me - just an overload of attention which is quite addictive to the sick ego. It's hard to break out of this and I often fall into the pessimistic/depressed pattern hoping someone will come dig me out of the hole so I don't have to do it myself. I guess you have to realise, no-one WILL dig you out of that hole, you have to do it alone. It takes strength and courage, not fear and worry.
DSM-IV Tom Posted January 21, 2009 Posted January 21, 2009 You're walking on a path that leads straight to a mental/personality disorder. My God, you must stop this dead in it's tracks. Thinking you only get attention when you're negative, will lead you into faking diseases for attention, etc... which will ultimately lead you to being MORE alone and, frankly, people will dislike you severely. So please, please do not take this path. (Not that I think you're going to or anything. Just need to put up a road block here in advance just in case). People care about you no matter what. Or else they wouldn't show concern when you aren't doing good. You need to seek professional help regarding being medicated (or talked through) this depression you're facing. Also, it would be a good idea to talk about how you're afraid to be happy. This could be (and most likely is) anxiety. If I had to sum up what you are suffering from, right here and now, I'd say you have depression/anxiety.
Author griffinchicken53 Posted January 21, 2009 Author Posted January 21, 2009 had seen a therapist, been on different medications. last meds had a side effect that caused some neurological problems. can't get good insurance because of this, can't find a job because of the job market, so can't seek therapy i have no money.
DSM-IV Tom Posted January 21, 2009 Posted January 21, 2009 Can you go into detail regarding the neurological damage that was done? What did it do? And can't you sue for this?
Author griffinchicken53 Posted January 22, 2009 Author Posted January 22, 2009 i started having seizures. i had some weird stuff where i'd feel spacey for a few seconds before i got fired, but i thought it was the pills. i was put on the pills before i saw any kind of commercial advertising for them. the doctor said i should take "anti-anxiety" meds, told me it was an "anti-seizure" drug that worked well for anxiety. after the seizure i went back and mentioned this, and the doctor denied ever saying that. also for a few months of the year or so i was on the meds i was on lunesta, again before i saw commercials for it. both have side effects of seizures. i think i was some kind of guinnea pig cuz this doctor had boxes and boxes of all these samples. No doctor will say the pills are what caused it so no lawsuit. I'm healthy now, finally found a good anti-seizure medicine but it is 300 bucks a month. that adds up quick when i can't find a job because everyone is downsizing.
D-Lish Posted January 22, 2009 Posted January 22, 2009 In my experience, I have found that when I am happy, people naturally gravitate toward me. I think you'll discover that as well. Generally, people like being around people that are uplifting. I went through a good two years of severe depression and awful anxiety. I actually isolated myself from my friends and family. I was so ashamed of myself that I didn't want to talk to anyone. Don't fall into the trap of believing that the only way to get attention is by being troubled or ill.
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