saturnsfall Posted January 16, 2009 Posted January 16, 2009 These past few days have been rough. I'm trying to stay occupied, but my mind wanders at times. I don't think I ever mentioned this: when we broke up, I took all of my stuff from the apartment. Everything I bought because it make me I'll to think he would stay there with things just as they were went it was our place. The last time I went, he had redecorated it exactly how I originally had it. Same curtains, same color, same place. Same table cloth, etc. I think about this quite a bit. It breaks my heart, it really does. He left me, so why did he duplicate it? Can someone explain that? I really want to talk to him, but I know I can't. I wonder if he thinks of me and regrets walking away from our second chance. I remember the bad memories, but honestly, I still care. I will probably never see/talk to him again. I need to forget it all, but I'm sad. I honestly thought that we'd be ok when we were giving it a second try. I think I lost the person, the person I was supposed to be with. I don't think I'll ever meet anyone else. I think i'm going to be alone forever. He broke my heart that day, and then again.
LostLamb Posted January 16, 2009 Posted January 16, 2009 Hi, I know how you feel. I think one day I will be ready to date again but my gut instincts are telling me that I have lost something really special and hard to replace. It took so long to find him as I am not the average type of person and neither was he. When he decided to give us a new start I was so happy. We went to my house before he left for work and did his favourite thing. I cried because I was so happy ,little did I know it would be the last time I would hold him.
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