lonelygurl Posted January 15, 2009 Posted January 15, 2009 it is amazing the way my emotions seem to be all over the map right now. Mostly I feel sad about the break up, but now I am having moments of pure anger were I just want to last out at him and wish him ill well. I almost find it hard to put all my thoughts into words. I'm starting to have a lot of feelings of regret for letting him back into my life the second time. Wondering what would have been if I hadn't have cut out the friends I had made from a website I had joined. He had promised the second time he would stick around no matter what but yet here I sit alone and broken hearted. He tells me "maybe" we can work on repairing the damage, but I have pretty much lost hope of that. He can't expect to come back months down the road again and reappear in my life, because this time I won't allow it. To what have him leave me in another few years. If he really wanted to work on repairing the relationship I feel he would be here and now. Of course he tells me he has no girlfriend, but he told me that last time and he did, so why would this time be different. I guess I still hope in some way he would come back and tell me how much he loves me and misses me but I realize now that isn't going to happen. I just wish this stupid pain would go away because it is making it hard to get on with life.
Nozz Posted January 15, 2009 Posted January 15, 2009 Sorry to hear about your pain. I understand where your coming from. When a loved one does this it breaks the heart so badly. If he has done this twice I would never let him back. Trust me there are guys out there like me that would never do this to you. You desreve much better. I know it's hard to let go, for me keeping busy is all can do to forget my loved one. Best wishes..
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