She seems to want to keep things together, Why can't I be happy about it?

[loveisher]

Okay, So my Live In girlfriend of 3 1/2 years...were in our mid 20's(we've had a perfect relationship, very loving and caring, she showed me love i never felt before, would look at me with so much love in her eyes)I love her more than anything and i do so much for her because i care for her so much.....2 months ago she said she didn't want to hurt me, she knows she could never find someone so good for her than me but that she needed to focus on her own life and was thinking about what it would be like to be alone....Long Story Short:

 

NOW, after 2 months of anguish and frustration mixed signals, going back and forth changing her mind a bunch of times..now she seems like she want to stay, she snuggles me she holds my hand, We snuggle when we sleep together, i rub her feet , we watch tv, we go to an occasional movie, she doesn't seem to want to kiss very much, but says she loves me...and recently she planned a trip to Canada for us both and bought tickets with the money she could've used to move out. My PROBLEM is, Why can't i be happy that this is happening? I still love her more than anything, but my confidence is still shattered. I want to believe that she is being honest and that she loves me and want to stay with me, but i'm afraid she's gonna get unhappy again. I'm trying to go about things differently. I'm trying to accept that people change and things change and that we need to do things different. I don't know. What should I do?

I'm driving myself crazy and don't really have anyone to talk to other than my buddies, but they aren't much help.

[loveisher]

P.S.

 

I'm trying hard not to force kisses on her, because i don't know where we stand, I'm guess i'm afraid to ask because, i just don't want her to feel pressured and scare her off. I'm trying to be so very careful with "US" because I want Us to work. But i know you shouldn't force things.

[emokid]

Be a man. Don't worry about anything. Just go with the flow. If she seems like she wants to work things out, work things out. Talk it out and make things better. Make healthy space for each other. Don't ditch her, you love her. AND, don't be all down and depressed or anything like that, if things don't move as fast as you want. Just take it slow, tell her you love her and be there for her, meanwhile, take the time to change some things about yourself, to make you feel good and more confident. You'll be cool.