BaD_Day Posted January 14, 2009 Posted January 14, 2009 I've been back and forth with this girl for a while (more than 4 months). But I never really tell her how I feel, today I found out she has a BF (Very new). I was suppose to be upset, but what I really felt was uncomfortable and offended. And right now I'm very not sure why. 1) When she's with her BF (unknown to me) she stayed away from me, but when we're together (without her BF) she makes funny faces at me (flirty ways), ask me to do stuff for her (which I find amusing, I did some of it just to see where she's going). Just 2 weeks ago, she asked me for some help with stuff, went to my place lounge around on my bed for a good hour or two. Intentionally touching me (I know it was intentional, let just say that I tried not to touch her, but she forced herself into it). But the whole time I pretend like nothing happened because I was really unsure. 2) On my birthday, she took her BF out with me (which wasn't agreed upon), at this point unknown to me. Made me very upset because A) if she was dating someone else, why ask me out for my birthday and bring a BF along, might as well tell me and get it over with (sort of made me into the 3rd wheel) B) if she wasn't dating, then why do that to someone on their BD when she asked me out? Anyways, the reasons why I never pushed it with this girl is because I feel like: 1) She loves no one but herself, even though on the surface she really pretend like she cares. 2) She hangs around with her ex-bf too much for me to feel comfortable. He calls her all the time, and she hangs out with him all the time, he gets mad at her because she doesn't call him ect... it's like they're semi-bf/gf. I never really liked that. 3) She works in the same place as I do, I hate to have to deal with things like that. (right now the guy she's dating is also working in the same place). 4) Her family doesn't allow her to date, she works on sat, church on sun, her BF can't show up at her house, basically it's dating in school. And I'm really really not too fond with sneaking around and catering to her time at school. 5) she wants me to do what she wants (which I never do, because I always feel like even if you like a person, you should have your own mind and do what you believe in), her BF (both the ex and the one now) are very good ass kisser, and that just wasn't me, I wouldn't kiss her ass regardless of how much I liked her. I personally think she's really cute, but alot of her traits/personality is VERY VERY disturbing to me. I feel as if I have a crush on her because she's cute more than liking her for who she is. But again, I kindda want to feel down a little, just because it's been a few months and it really feels like time wasted playing tug of war. For some reason I feel relief that it's all over (closure). It is possible that I never really liked her, and I just responded because she pushed my button?
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