lofi_tokyo Posted January 14, 2009 Posted January 14, 2009 In recent weeks I've met a lot of people who have done traveling around the world. They have tons of inspiring and interesting pictures to look at online. I looked back on some of my old photos from travels - were they are fantastic? One album contained photos of my ex. He looked so happy, so sweet, so exactly how I loved him. I'm not sad as I type this, I'm not happy, I'm not nostalgic, I'm not empty feeling... I'd say I feel nothing, but I don't feel numb other. In recent months I've gained the ability to stand up on my own. I don't think of my ex very often at all anymore. In fact aside from seeing my ex's picture today, I don't think I thought of him at all. I've completely found the ground I lost when my ex left me. But... in the brief moment I saw that picture, I suppose... I remembered how entirely my ex and I made each other, as if there was some inseperable stitch between us that kept us glued at the heart. Well. Were apart now. Though I have moved on, and I know we will never go back, I think today I realized that... My ex and I had troubles, troubles complicated by long distance. I then went to Japan. Maybe, the loneliness and inability to see and touch eachother eventually put my ex in a situation where someone nearby seemed better. I don't believe he had stopped loving me when he went for her, and I believe if we saw eachother, the same old feelings would come rushing back. In so many ways we made one another. So. Thats that. Again, I'm not sad, I don't want him back, but I can't explain this feeling. I guess its just loss. ;p
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