My ex went from wanting space, to wanting to be single

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Ill start with some background information, a week before christmas my gf of almost a year and a half broke it off. At first she told me she just needed time to her self(space), she said she had a lot of stuff going on with her finals coming up lots of school work and her brother was going to be in town till the beginning of january. Originally she told me she just wanted the "break" until her brother left so she could concentrate on him and her family. I took it hard still and remained in the same contact and almost as if the relationship had still carried on. During the "break" we visited often i took her and her brother to the movies, i went to her house on christmas. But I became impatient and began doing things i shouldnt have, i started to feel the break up and didnt want it to happen so I started trying to pressure her back into the relationship instead of giving her time and space. Her brother left at the beginning of this month and I asked her if she was ready for a relationship, it seems that on her "break" she came to a realization that she just enjoys being single and wants to remain single. I took it really hard and started asking her questions like why do you want to be single? do u not love me? why wont u give me a second chance? It seems that anytime i referred towards our relationship the answer was most deffinately an "I dont know". I realised more recently that what I really needed to do was not smother her.. give her space and time to think things through. I haven't been calling her anymore I still text her but most of the time in response to her texts. She still does talk to me quite often actually (day to day basis) And just yesterday we finnaly got a chance to see eachother again in over 2 weeks. I went and visited her we walked and talked for awhile I tried to seem "on top of my game" as I would put it.. Positive, confident, controlled, and funny. Yet while doing these things she gave me hints about "being friends" little nudges as I would put it. At the same time tho, she did seem to try and distance herself from me as I would put it, instead of the loving hugs I would normally get, she would give me little pat on the back hugs. She even went as far to tell me about some guy I know who has now been hitting on her. While we were there we even talked about being "single" She told me how she loved being single, but that at the same time she isnt looking for any guy. She even said to me "I think i want to be single for like atleast a year" I can't stand the distance I want to get her back, what I want to know is how does she feel towards me? Is there any chance for reconciling this? Or should I just let it be? I dont want to be her "friend" and I did tell her that. What I need is some advice on the situation and to know if I still have a chance! Im extremely confused and dont know what to do. Thank you for all ur help and suggestions

 

Also, I dont understand why but even while broken up I confronted her about the situation a couple times when we were face to face. By the end of the conversation she had rapped herself around me and I found her kissing me... WTF!? Why!? I was very emotional at the time.. brink of tears etc opening my feelings up to her was this an act of saying Im sorry? Or what just another mind**** game I went through ><