i'm breaking down... !!!

[lost85]

I just visited my ex's facebook and its horrible! He deleted me from FB a month ago but I wanted to visit deperately today and did so. He apparently went on a road trip this month with his new friends and the girl he's interested in and he has posted a video of himself on at the place drinking and playing cards and "confessing" his love for this girl and she is there in the video too...but they're all taking it as a joke. But I know him, he says it as a joke but he really means it.

 

I feel so hurt...I cant begin to explain. Tears are pouring down now. He dumped me in Oct last year but came back after a month to work things out. He then changed his mind abt getting back together after we argued because he had not planned how we were going to fix our relationship etc.. He came back on a whim. Then his friend died and I backed off but then after a week I kept calling him and texting him to make a decision and finally a month ago he told me to leave him alone. that he doesnt love me anymore. the things he said to me were so cruel. He played me along and then just dumped me cos he met someone this girl at his friend's funeral and now he's trying to get with her. Its so unfair.

 

I gave him everything he ever wanted and now he does'nt give two ****s abt me. I am so upset that he hasnt tried to contact me. He was my first and i miss him terribly. He is 18 and I am 21. I wish he would see I still love him and I am suffering here without him.

 

How could he like someone else so soon? Did i mean nothing to him? We went out for 1.5 years and now I feel I have nothing to show for it except for scars. I HATE HIM...im so broken right now.

 

I want to hear his voice again. See him and hold him.

 

Now he has someone else to do this. I don't know for sure if they're going out. It will kill me!

 

Wow I really was taken for a ride by him.

 

What do I do? I was holding hope of reconciling. I thought he would realise what a mistake he has made but it looks like it will never happen.

[Riffmeister General]

Ah mate. If it's any consolation, I'm there with you now (see my most recent thread).

 

There's nothing that can prepare you for how painful it is visiting those sites. I just caught a glimpse of her pic on Facebook (I deleted her, but forgot her comments stay on there) and it was like a red-hot poker to my heart. It really is best to stay away from those things. Wish we could learn how like a kid burning themselves on a hot pan! Doesn't seem to work that way tho, eh?

 

I'm trying to think of things I've got out of the relationship so I don't think it was a waste of time. It's hard, I know. I've learned a lot about myself and how I can completely give myself up to someone when I doubted I ever could. My powers of resolve, dealing with this, still going out and living my life despite the pain.

 

We'll grow stronger out of this, and our next relationships will be better as a result.

 

Hang in there hun, we're all going through it/gone through it.

[durotto]

You need to calm down .. block him from FB and go on and enjoy yourself with your own friends ..

 

Take some time for yourself do some stuff for yourself .. buy yourself some gifts .. talk to people / friends about your hurt ..

 

It will hurt I know .. even today I got dreaming about my ex .. even in my dream she was turning me down and it seemed like my nightmare was reliving everything that happened when we broke up and right now today I am all sad and broken up .. .. but your ex seems to have moved on with someone else .. and I do not think he is willing to come back to you .. You have to accept it .. Acceptance is the first step of healing .

 

Once you accept he is gone .. you can heal your broken heart ..

 

You should go full No Contact and get on with your own life and stuff ..

 

Keep your chin up we are here for you !!

[Knight_Ctrl]

you learned the hard way just like i did. Stay the hell away from facebook or myspace. Bad horrible **** ju ju