Zammo25 Posted January 11, 2009 Posted January 11, 2009 I gave my heart for it to be thrown on the floor. I spilt myguts for it to be thrown on the floor. I laid it all on the line for it to be thrown on the floor. She had moved on and is out having fun and probably dating. and doing how knows what. Do I care, Do I give a f*ck. Yes. Looking at all the thread do we have one thing in common. ARE WE ALL LOSERS ?. We are moaning about everything but someone else is probably with our ex and doing god know what. I have had NC for 6 days even though I know she was out on the single scene tonight. It took all my strength not to text her and tell her whilst she was having fun whilst my guts were on the floor and could not sleep for a week. So easy for her to move on , where does that leave me ?. Bitter , angry and twisted. Will it get better, everyone says it will but I can't believe it. I am ANGRY and PISSED OFF. I feel like a loser and a sad individual. I know its over but am not happy with it like everyone esle seems to be.
Author Zammo25 Posted January 11, 2009 Author Posted January 11, 2009 Go out. Have fun. Relax I know that but I am fed up with it. We have all been dumped. The anger is bad. Is this one of the stages. Tonight I have for the first time accpted its OVER. 6 days of NC and I know she had a pre arranged single's night. She is probablt with some guy now and its been playing on my mind all night. I am Pissed off , I lose.
Knight_Ctrl Posted January 11, 2009 Posted January 11, 2009 you dont lose. I'm pissed off about it too man. Unfortunately you'll find soon (tonight even I expect) that you still care. Its gonna hit you like a bomb. Just take it easy bro. Read this I'm trying, so hard To get you out of my mind I tried so hard Until it was all over and done with My feelings were long gone No longer hurt in my stomach At first it was love kid, Then turned into constant arguments, I tried my hardest to stop it, This bitchin Always started it Taken advantage of my fragile heart, Tore it apart The state of one attraction I should of known from the start Over powered by hazel eyes My mind paused for a minute Picturing love, There was nothing that could block the image My thoughts depended, On her actions, Her ways, Her love Asked her father gods of lust I prayed enough? Embarced her trust mate No fuss just dream happily Day by day I noticed the pain increase rapidly In a dieing scene I tried to forget it And let it past So by doing this I forced to the relationship that would never lost Every past was deprecated All trust was gone Playing stupid, as I never knew, What went wrong ( Chorus ) I, I question my... a love for you, To leavin me Who knew I can't handle this pain, Cried for you in this rain Why... a won't you say Sorry, Turn around And come back home? I'm just so tired of bein alone ( End of Chorus ) I hate her How many times haven't I said it? I hate the fact that she hates me And I shall never forget it Never had I ever **** with her feelings, Let her regret it All of these years, Lost in the tears, That my letters presented I still miss her Catch myself, slittin my wrist With the glass I seperated From the last picture we flick Together is 1, Wondering what I've done to take this, Holding my pillow every night, Wish that she replace it Well **** it, It's all over and done, Feeling's are gone And I'm starting to get tired of love killing my songs So then my arms Are forgotten trees, Left in my shirt I love you, **** I can't even say I remember the words Never concerning anything Having to do with her past You ruined it last We're hiding the truth in a mass, Stupid ass I'm ignoring the crap that you moaned We had out times Until today, I hope you're happy alone
awesomeallalone Posted January 11, 2009 Posted January 11, 2009 im on the same boat.... 6 days no contact and hating it..... a week of nothing i can really remember it seems like a flash and what is he doing tonight?? probably with his friends picking up girls.... it bothers me alot!!! im angry too.... and its normal to feel angry just go with it.... it beats crying!
WiseOne1 Posted January 11, 2009 Posted January 11, 2009 Losers?? Not me, I was just a confused person, one thing about it never lose, I always win at the end rather its legally, finicially, romantically etc. But however it does get better, it never stays the same, think about it...how many people have you seen get divorces and go through breaks ups and are married or with someone else month's down the line, a unknown number of people. So therefore at some point you get over a ex, however it feels like you never get over them, also when going thru a breakup you wanna force yourself to not think about someone because like you said, while were worrying about ex's "there out doing god know's what".
Template Posted January 11, 2009 Posted January 11, 2009 I know that but I am fed up with it. We have all been dumped. The anger is bad. Is this one of the stages. Tonight I have for the first time accpted its OVER. 6 days of NC and I know she had a pre arranged single's night. She is probablt with some guy now and its been playing on my mind all night. I am Pissed off , I lose. Anger is definately one the stages of a breakup. So is acceptace that its over. You are well on your way my friend. I'm trying to get to your point myself seeing as I've been dumped 4 days ago. I doubt in 2 more days I'll be at your point. Trust me, if you read my post, I have no reason but to be angry, but I'm more sad than anything else. Everything you are going through and will go through is completely natural. It doesn't make you a loser by no means. I makes you human. Don't fight it the process, as our just prolonging your trip to happiness.
Author Zammo25 Posted January 11, 2009 Author Posted January 11, 2009 Anger is definately one the stages of a breakup. So is acceptace that its over. You are well on your way my friend. I'm trying to get to your point myself seeing as I've been dumped 4 days ago. I doubt in 2 more days I'll be at your point. Trust me, if you read my post, I have no reason but to be angry, but I'm more sad than anything else. Everything you are going through and will go through is completely natural. It doesn't make you a loser by no means. I makes you human. Don't fight it the process, as our just prolonging your trip to happiness. I am an idiot. I had over 3 years to get my act together and did not. I could have moved in with her and married her and should have but I did not. I did not do what needed to be done to nurture the relationshp and now its gone. Even up until a couple of weeks ago I still had a chance now its too late. I think of her every second of every day and night. I know she will meet someone else soon and its killing me. I am desperately wanting to call her to hear her voice. I am scared about my feelings. I have nevr been like this before. I am 46 and time had passed me by to find happiness. I should be with her , in bed, cuddling her , not here on my own with a life of regrets and what ifs. What can I do I cannot carry on like this. HELP !.
You'reasian Posted January 11, 2009 Posted January 11, 2009 I know that but I am fed up with it. We have all been dumped. The anger is bad. Is this one of the stages. Tonight I have for the first time accpted its OVER. 6 days of NC and I know she had a pre arranged single's night. She is probablt with some guy now and its been playing on my mind all night. I am Pissed off , I lose. There goes your mind working against your efforts... Good luck!
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