Lyza Posted January 10, 2009 Posted January 10, 2009 I'm young, and I live in France...Well before, I use to live in an asian country, but I'm on an exchange student programme. Well, what do I really have to say.. Since the 18th October 2008.. I've believed myself in love with a guy who keeps giving me mixed signals. I mean, it really hurts because I don't know where I stand with him..If he likes me, or if he doesn't. Well..my relationship with him started as a decoy. I would hug him and flirt with him in front of other guys because I wanted them to notice me. Yes I know how shallow that sounds, but it's the truth. So.. well...but then, I started to fall for him..whenever he and I use to hold hands or he use to hook his arm in mine, or when we'd hug. Sometimes, there were moments where I felt that he likes me... Like moments in the bus when it's so crowded and I can feel him staring at me. Or even another moment when the bus is so crowded and we're both standing next to each other and I can feel his hand gently rubbing my hand. I mean... does he even notice what he does to me? For the past two months, he's been walking me home on tuesdays and wednesday, why those days specifically beacause well..those are the days his best friend isn't there..and i mean, is he ashamed that of the fact that he might like me..or he likes walking me home. A few weeks ago, we had the ultimate climax of our relationship, where he would walk me home..and there would be an awkward silence of so many unspoken words hanging in the air...I don't know why he never said anything, perhaps I might be mistaking his actions..and he doesn't want it to go further. One day..he walked me home, and stopped right in front of the door and there was an awkward pause... Again, he didn't do anything. After that day, he stopped walking me directly to my door. Nowadays I feel him talking to me less and less. I think he might be forgetting the messed up relationship I had with him because I don't know...The other thing is.. he's immature. I admit it because, he doesn't know how to act and everything...and i don't know.. I really like him, but I can't imagine how it would be like with him...I still give him my looks where my eyes speak for my feelings, but i don't know... he doesn't see it. I would love to tell him my feelings, but i'm so scared of rejection. He's in my class and if he rejected me..I can imagine the feeling of awkwardness.. Once, during the vacation...i saw him at a mall...so I stopped him to say hi..and he was with his brother and he just really treated me awkwardly. It broke my heart..and for that, I'm trying to forget him. But I'm so messed up by his signals. My heart's out on a platter for him.. Why does he keep taking tiny pieces of it but never really understanding it. Someone help me, guide me..
Dumbledore Posted January 10, 2009 Posted January 10, 2009 I'm young, and I live in France... Luckily you still have plenty of time to escape. Maybe the next time you give him a fake hug, you could plant a fake kiss on his cute mouth. If he won't come to you, then the next best thing is to scare him away.
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