EmperorR Posted January 8, 2009 Posted January 8, 2009 I'm pissed that when I wanted to end it you cut your wrists and manipulated me to change my mind. I'm pissed that I took a lower paying job and stayed there for so long do I could get off early on Fridays to spend with you. I'm pissed you never believed I loved you, until you cheated and dumped me and I cried foe the first time. I'm pissed at how you were tslkin to the phone with mr saying you love me then 5 seconds once I hang up you go back to screwing some Guy you just met I'm pissed after all I did for you, you tossed me like a couple cough I'm pissed at myself for even at one point wanting you back I'm pissed at myself for letting you dictate my life for 3 years I'm pissed at myself for making this thread Ah I feel better now
Geishawhelk Posted January 8, 2009 Posted January 8, 2009 What, you mean you're 'pissed'? or you're pissed? Cheap alcohol is the pits, huh? Go for the expensive stuff. Quality hangover!!
GodofNietzsche Posted January 8, 2009 Posted January 8, 2009 Geisha walk, always love your advice, but gotta say that was not quite as "zen" as your other posts.
Geishawhelk Posted January 8, 2009 Posted January 8, 2009 Ah well. You're right. I just felt the need to break out for a second or two.....! Thank you kindly for the thwack with the kyosaku!
alwayssme Posted January 8, 2009 Posted January 8, 2009 They say everything happens for a reason, so hopefully someday when things are sunny, we can see that reason. For now we just gotta keep going, it has gotten better...the anger and sadness will be there some days of course, but we're moving forwards!
lofi_tokyo Posted January 9, 2009 Posted January 9, 2009 They say everything happens for a reason, so hopefully someday when things are sunny, we can see that reason. For now we just gotta keep going, it has gotten better...the anger and sadness will be there some days of course, but we're moving forwards! Yup! I totally agree with ya Always.
Peter_pan Posted January 9, 2009 Posted January 9, 2009 stay strong man, its 09 now, try not to let what happened get at you
GodofNietzsche Posted January 9, 2009 Posted January 9, 2009 GeishaWalk： 日本語ができますか。日本語で話しましょうよ。 You better be able to read that, if you're throwing around Japanese words in Romanji.
Surfer Dude Posted January 9, 2009 Posted January 9, 2009 GeishaWalk： 日本語ができますか。日本語で話しましょうよ。 You better be able to read that, if you're throwing around Japanese words in Romanji. Come on people, don't derail this thread into a nihongo contest flame @emperor: let it out I'm also sometimes mad that I let her do all the things she did, but in order to heal, you first gotta forgive yourself. One of the first things I learned is not to beat myself up over things that are in the past.
alwayssme Posted January 9, 2009 Posted January 9, 2009 Yup! I totally agree with ya Always. hi tokyo, long time. How have you been?
GodofNietzsche Posted January 9, 2009 Posted January 9, 2009 You're right. Sorry EmperorR. We can only learn from experience. People can tell you "life lessons" until you are blue in the face, but you really won;t understand until they happen to you personally.
Author EmperorR Posted January 9, 2009 Author Posted January 9, 2009 I just get pissed sometimes even after like 130 Days nc and I still relapse sometimes.
againstallodds Posted January 9, 2009 Posted January 9, 2009 Hang in there Emperor. I broke up with my ex in august so we are pretty much NC almost at the same time. The breakup still bother me but the urge to contact is almost gone but sometime I relapsed too damn it. The good memories just pull me back in and then I snapped out of it and think of the bad lol.
Geishawhelk Posted January 10, 2009 Posted January 10, 2009 GodofNietzsche, if you're reading this, your PM facility is turned off. Thanks for the PM, but - I can't reply!!
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