vino Posted January 8, 2009 Posted January 8, 2009 I was taking an algebra test five years ago.I knew I was going to fail it. I put my pencil down, got up and left to get a smoothie. It was a strange happening. When I walked into the juice shop, I sat next to this really cute guy. We talked as if we had known each other forever. The next week we took a road trip to Tampa..The next month we took a road trip to California. It was the best time I ever had in my entire life. We ended up moving to New York together where we lived in a basement apartment in his parents house. We were both working in the city as bartenders and both planning on going to graduate school. He wanted to go to graduate school in Italy. Our parents were pushing us to get married and I think we both got really scared. I ended up moving back home (Florida) after eight months. He drove me home..and we talked and laughed and had sex the whole way down the eastern sea board. We were both crying at the airport and I felt like I wanted to die when I watched him get on that plane .He would call me constantly after he got back, but I was really resentful. I was pissed that he wanted to go to Italy and not stay with me...So I would tell him about guys I would date. I was 23 and I was a jerk. He went to Italy and meet a girl. Two years later, I was in New york visiting family and he was insisting that we see each other. I was there with my then boyfriend (we just broke up). He casually informed me he was getting married in a month and he needed to see me.I wouldn't see him. I wish I had. It has been five years since I dated this guy..I had a three year relationship since him and I still love him. I left my boyfriend three months ago and I am coming to this realization that I never was in love with him! Because when I am sad or lonely..I think of the original boyfriend. I guess my question is...Do people only truly fall in love once? And..does he still love me? And why is life so twisted??
Geishawhelk Posted January 8, 2009 Posted January 8, 2009 Life isn't twisted. Life is just what it is. If anyone twists anything, it's us. Don't look back with regrets. Take it on board as experience, and resolve to enjoy and be honest with yourself, and others. Buona Fortuna.
saturnsfall Posted January 8, 2009 Posted January 8, 2009 I'm sorry you're upset. People say you can only fall in love once, but that's not true. We wait to find great love. An all consuming love. That type of love is much more difficult to come across than average love. This person made a mark in your heart. Many of us have one of those. You may still love this man, but there's a reason you're not together. It common, when you're alone, to think of that person. That doesn't mean he was 'that' guy. As for your other relationship, what did you learn / gain from it? Don't dwell on what was. I know it's easy for me to say, but it's true. You loved, now you need to live. Don't consume yourself with the past. You have a wonderful love story. A story you can tell. Now it's time to write a new book... The one that will last a lifetime.
againstallodds Posted January 8, 2009 Posted January 8, 2009 Some of us do get caught up in the past and it's hard to let go. I think it's our ego some are bigger than others. I never experience that but I know there are people who are. There are people who just waiting in the wing for someone and the person just keep dating one after another. When I was younger, there was this girl that I really like and I want her more than anything but unfortunately she never like me. I love her for a few years. As I get older I learn to let go. I don't chase anymore, the way I think now is if she doesn't want me then I'll find someone who does and I don't waste my time. I don't know if it's the right thing to do. Some people believe that you should fight for someone you love but I think it's a waste of time.
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