sinkerswim Posted January 7, 2009 Posted January 7, 2009 Well, last night he got home from work and I was a complete wreck with crying..depression..etc. I was cooking dinner and listening to some 80's music. Some classic cheesy love songs came on... one was "Against All Odds"... of all things at that moment. I was kind of singing it out loud. I begged for him not to leave me...that 2009 is a brand new start..etc. He didnt say much..he just told me "Sweetie..you are gonna make yourself sick"...because I was crying so hard. I went into his computer room where he was and said.. "I love making dinner for you and always want to do this for you". he then said..."I know you do and I appreciate it You never know what will happen" I said "really Sweetie?" and he then said "No guarantees". I dont get it. Does he mean in the future??? Or does he mean he now? Im too afraid to bring it up again..I am in denial about this all...I dont wanna leave him.
BCCA Posted January 7, 2009 Posted January 7, 2009 There is just nothing worse than wishy washy answers. Only he knows what he means exactly, but I never got the reasoning behind these kind of comments. You either want someone or you dont. Keeping them on the hook is mean, in my opinion. I wish I had something to tell you to make this suck less, I really do. To me, it just sounds like he's having his cake and eating it, too right now. Is he going to stay or go? Who knows, but do you really want to wait around for him to figure it out? Is there anyway you two can move apart? It has to be rough seeing him all the time.
Author sinkerswim Posted January 7, 2009 Author Posted January 7, 2009 well, I can move back to PA...but that is 900 miles away from him. I know eventually it will come to it.. (I think) because I need my family. But I DO NOT WANT TO BE SO FAR FROM HIM. I am sick over this. Will he ever pursue me again out there? He said he may. I am numb. One thing I do know for sure is... If I move back home to PA... I have many friends out here who I became very close to...I would DEF come back to visit. Hoping he would want to see me too. I couldnt imagine not visiting Illinois anymore. I need a miracle to happen here.. A good job again and for him to go back to loving me like before.
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