my dilema

[Brokenhighway]

Im not sure this is in the right place but am sure someone will let me know.

 

three months ago i started seeing a woman casually, just for fun it was a mutual agreement.

Over the past few months we have become very close, ive met her friends, and family, and we talk daily and text reguarly.

now she left a bad relationship around twelve months ago and has problems with him still making her life hard.

Reguarly she tells me she has to keep her heart in a box around me because she could so easily fall in love.

She also tells me no body in her life has made her feel as good as i do. and to get it straight, i dont do this to get anything, i do it because i like to and she is so nice.

Long term plans have even popped up in conversation too. And last week after coming back from xmas holidays she tells me that im it pretty much and she`s not going anywhere cause im the best thing thats happened to her in a long time. so i sort settle in a bit and except that its getting serious, but surprise surprise im feeling good about it.

 

after spending two great days with me last week she goes home all tired and emotional and cops it from the ex on the phone, and reduces her to a wreck. then she comes in saturday and tells me she wants to love me but has feelings for him still and doesnt want it to ruin us later. i know she will never go back to him.

Now she knows how i feel, i told her, however long it takes and whatever it takes, im not giving up on you, i waited too long for someone like you. she says she wants to back it down a gear and still dwell in the single life side of it till her life is sorted. but still see me. i say ok.

but that was saturday and i have had three lines outta her since.

i msn her to ask i i should stay clear and what are the rules reguarding slowing down.

she tells me she doesnt know and is going away for a few days to relax and think, and will talk to me when shes not so emotional.

so i say ok no drama, hope to hear from you soon and to take care.

 

Now i know the logic here, but im consumed by the fact that it might be over, whilst friends and councellors (lifeline) have told me otherwise that im focused soley on the bad and not all the positive points. and that i should let her calm down and think rationally.

 

problem is im going insane, and the pain, god, i didnt think i could hurt like this. friends i have spoken to say i seem to be in love with the girl. i may be, but i not telling her just to get what i want.

she is very strong with two kids and had a lot of stress, do i stay away, therefore keeping myself from being mixed generally into her pool of life problems.?

i really really want to do the right thing to show her im serious and strong. and wanting to give her what she wants.

 

help please or shoot me down.

[Brokenhighway]

dont worry peoples its finished. thanks