Lizzyb6938 Posted January 5, 2009 Posted January 5, 2009 Oh holy cr*p I'm an idiot. Been broken up with the ex for nearly two months (his choice). He wanted me back after a week, but I said we'll wait and see after he comes back from his month and a half trip to Europe. Ok so I'd been doing really well. All contact came from him. Chose to reply to some of it, others I didn't. All his messages were sweet, most said I miss you. One was a picture message of him at Madame Tussauds in London with Audrey Hepburn (our first date was breakfast at tiffany's at the moonlight cinema) saying ' ran into an old friend thought you'd like to join us.' So I've been playing it cool, nice but short and sweet. Just 'glad you're having fun' type stuff. Well anyways he got back yesterday. My friend wrote me a message asking if i'd heard from him yet. I wrote back saying 'hey gab, sorry for all my frantic calls yesterday (*note: they were nothing to do with my ex) haven't heard from matt. pilates on wednesday sounds great. i'll give you a call tomoz xoxo.' But I was distracted talking to my friend who I was in the car with and sent it to my ex instead!!!! He wrote back saying 'hey lizzy, just a heads up you sent that message to the wrong person lol. you will hear from matt, if you want, once he has an extremely long sleep and gets over his jetlagg.' I was MORTIFIED. Here I am miss cool, calm and collected for two months having a wonderful time and making sure he knows about it and i feel like i've completely blown my poker face. I feel completely exposed. I wrote back saying 'whoops lol sorry lizzy moment' which I think was the best thing to write given the circumstances but I feel like a complete idiot and like I've blown my whole I'm 100% ok without you act. Btw I have been ok. I have been having a ball going out with friends, dating and have really been enjoying life but I do miss him alot. I know i'll be fine with or without him, but I would prefer the former. I've really blown this haven't I??!!
DSM-IV Tom Posted January 5, 2009 Posted January 5, 2009 No you haven't blown anything except your ability to control anxiety, apparently. Take a deep breath. In the overall picture, this is irrelevant. It will neither make him come back, or push him away. So you can relax. Take a deep breath and knock out the anxiety.
starzphalling Posted January 5, 2009 Posted January 5, 2009 from the outside looking in, it could just be hey this guy was traveling hope he's ok, haven't heard from him. not OMG i can't believe he hasn't called i need him to call omg omg omg i want to wear his skin, haven't heard from him. so i say you're a-ok still.
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