confuseddd Posted January 5, 2009 Posted January 5, 2009 I do NC pretty good until a small "reason" comes along to call him and it snowballs quickly and before you can BLINK YOUR EYE, I give in and call him. I can't stop it even though I KNOW I SHOULD NOT CALL HIM! I mean, he's pissed at me and doesn't want to talk to me. I just don't want to let him go even though I know he deserves better than me....I know that sounds so selfish and it is I guess. But he is such a good person...he is probably the most caring man I have ever met. And I hurt him. That makes me feel like crap... Even with him aside, I can't seem to make up my mind about leaving hubby...he is trying a little harder these days after our 4 month break up where I filed for divorce. But I just don't know, I feel those old feelings creep back over me and I feel sick again and want him to leave again. I am a TERRIBLE decision maker anyway...I guess it was pretty phenomenal that I made him leave considering how I am! here's the link to my "story": http://www.loveshack.org/forums/t129251/ It's all so confusing ( so please use little words!!!! HAH!) I sometimes think I would be trading the witch for the broom....I mean really, after awhile, aren't we all the same? Aren't we all attracted to that same "type" over and over? I am almost to the point that true love and a long and happy marriage are just ideals and don't really happen. People get bored, people get tired of being yelled at or being snidely treated. Or just wanting something new? I mean REALLY....is it supposed to last until death do us part? IS that really possible? Is it????? I read an article that lists BOREDOM as the top reason men and women cheat. BOREDOM people...what does that say about us???? Please tell me how you do this NC thing...I have been trying here lately but it seems that I can only go two days without talking to him. I want to know how he is and if he is okay....Oh well....I am just going to try to post my little rants instead of calling him if I can avoid that avalanche thing were I feel like I am overpowered and I give in and call him. let me know how you guys do it. Surely you have some sort of magic trick I can use. Thanks if you are still reading this ramble.
Reggie Posted January 5, 2009 Posted January 5, 2009 You go girl. A man will move mountains for the woman he loves.
frannie Posted January 6, 2009 Posted January 6, 2009 I can't say I have any special tricks for NC, I have always caved in the end However, perhaps if you concentrated on sorting out your marriage first, actually get the divorce, then you wouldn't be so focused on breaking the NC? If you get away from the verbally-abusive man you will find you have a lot more options for relationships, and perhaps will start to look forwards rather than backwards..? Just a suggestion anyway.
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