wooha Posted January 5, 2009 Posted January 5, 2009 Two years ago, I was single and fine with being single. Until one evening I saw the most beautiful little black-haired creature I had ever seen. I attempted to get a number with no luck, maybe because I was the guy in the bar coverd in cow**** and blood, spurs on boots, and horse on the trailer in the parking lot. I'm a different kinda guy-I'm a cowboy, love to hunt, etc., but I'm no redneck by any means-I have plenty of culture, and love to travel, which makes me weird to my peers in the same line of work. I love classy girls-well dressed, educated, with a clean mouth. I was raised by one of the most classy ladies I know-my grandmother. Back to business, I came from a priveledged family and i find it hard to trust many girls. This beautiful creature finally came around, and i was the most nervous person on this earth. We got together, and she started hinting about marriage after 6 months, so I bought her the finest ring I could'nt afford. We went on ski trips, beach, and coach purses, everything! Time came to buy a home, and I told her that things would slow down after we bought a home, she said ok. A prenup was requested by family, only for our family business-not for my personal things, or our home-she agreed. Time went on, we moved in our new love nest, I bought new carpet @ her request, painted, etc., whatever to make her smile. Over the summer we grew apart. I was working long hours, and she was off for the summer(Teacher). She would hang out with her friends everyday, not cook for me after these long hellish days, and no laundry unless I raised hell. She became very mean to me because I did'nt want people over all the time during the week, and because I lost interest in bar hopping(Which I think is VERY unhealthy for a relationship)She became very abusive-Phisically, and mentally. I thought I was doing the right thing by growing up and concentrating on providing for her. The wedding showers started coming, friends parties, gifts, and all we were doing was fighting over me "acting like I was 40" I am 24. It wore me down because my heart was in the right place. One week before the wedding, she went to sign the prenup @ her lawyers office while I was helping set up for our wedding(which she never lifted a finger)and I got the call. "I'm not signing it" is what I heard, I collapsed, I was crushed. All I wanted was for her to spend the rest of my life with me, F*ck money, and everything else. The next morning she called and said she would, but by then I was drained, I could'nt marry a girl that was that worried about money. After a few months of a back and forth relationship, we had a blow up, did'nt talk for a week, and I called and tried to patch it up. I said "Lets just run off, and get married". Then the bomb dropped-In a weeks time she slept with another fella, TWICE. Even after that, I still tried(like a dumbass)and she refused, but she said lets just take it slow. All that meant was one big mind game, so I ended it. Why now am I still hurting? Why do I miss this self centered person that did'nt even buy me a Christmas present after I gave her that gorgeous ring right before the holidays, and still bought her one? Why cant I get over this? I know I deserve better, her own family even says so.
lonelygurl Posted January 5, 2009 Posted January 5, 2009 because like all of us you loved her. You had plans to marry her, you were making a home and a future. It doesn't matter what happened you are broken hearted and you love her.
EmperorR Posted January 5, 2009 Posted January 5, 2009 because like all of us you loved her. You had plans to marry her, you were making a home and a future. It doesn't matter what happened you are broken hearted and you love her. Yep I agree 100 percént. If only it was so easy to stop loving or caring about someone. All I can say is cut contact with her only way you can heal yourself.
againstallodds Posted January 5, 2009 Posted January 5, 2009 wooha, Maybe you're a successful guy and you don't fail that often and failure is not an option for you. It's an ego thing. You want what you can't have. My suggestion is learn not to put too much value on things.
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