BackonTrack2 Posted January 4, 2009 Posted January 4, 2009 Ok, well, might as well give an update. Been NC 9 months now, since about april, almost a year since we officially departed, been longer than that though, about 1.5 years really..... Anyway I'm better, I feel good. I'm back to where I was before I met her, I'm not angry or anything. I think about her still, not as much as before, just passing thoughts now really... I miss the relationship though, she kept me company and was always there, I still don't know what happen to us.... I am no fool, we loved each other, not long though, maybe 8 months. Odd Girl, whatever its the past, so about the future, well, I'm back to normal. The pain is gone, its really gone, took a while, about 7-8 months. I miss her though, lol she's suppose to be in the room sleeping, I'm suppose to hit the "Submit New Thread" button and then go and sleep next to her, and feel her warm body, we are suppose to be having a life but ah, never happen. I need to find someone new. Its not so bad, time flew by so fast, I almost don't remember. Its like it never happen. Its strange. I won't remember her in a few months, thats sad, I loved her, but now its like, I feel nothing. This is weird, I don't understand it, but I guess its how life works, one minute they are here, the next they are gone, all you have is memories, most of mine are good, she was nice, I don't know what happen to her. In all honesty I took her for granted in allot of ways, stupid girl stayed anyway, she really left, thats good, during our relationship, I never gave her my all, maybe like 30% or something, but when I was ready, it turned out I was the past, she would of liked it, I know she would of liked it, I had allot of trips planned, all her fantasy destination spots, france, india, i had the money and we were making arrangements, and I got us the space we needed, damn...... Looks like I was to late in that relationship, the whore got bored or something.... That life is gone, oh well, later folks.
TG84 Posted January 4, 2009 Posted January 4, 2009 I'm sorry you're going through this. I'm going through something similar. I'm glad you've found the power to move on. I wish people could just live happily ever after with the ones they fall in love with. But sometimes that's not the case. People are fickle. They want that white knight or gorgeous queen that they grew up dreaming about, but when they get them they get bored, they feel like the grass is greener elsewhere, they treat them like crap and test them, and most times they end up breaking up. This cycle repeats itself until they get to an age where they either have matured, or are desperate and decide they need to settle down, get married, and have a companion to be with them.
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