californiadreaming Posted January 4, 2009 Posted January 4, 2009 Just venting.. Man I miss her so much. I am strong as hell but I honestly am missing her so bad. - I know.. I am not going to call or anything weird but I had to get it off of my chest. - I've had a shot of tequila, and 3 tall boys, and sort of setting myself up for this. But I rather do it then hold it in. Overall I start work after a year and a half, and I kinda wanted to celebrate. Well celebrating I am, but listening to osunlade "Crazy Over You" - & kinda broke down. I will be ok... Thanks guys!
saturnfell Posted January 4, 2009 Posted January 4, 2009 Stay with us! Stay strong and don't make a call. Think about how you'll feel in the morning knowing you got through this.
malibustacydoll Posted January 4, 2009 Posted January 4, 2009 How long were you two together and how long has it been since the breakup?
Riffmeister General Posted January 4, 2009 Posted January 4, 2009 I raise a glass to you, my good man, for your honesty. I am also, after having a rather good day, having a terrible evening. The trailer for a movie she went to see with this other guy (and some other friends admittedly) when I know she had feelings for him came on and I was overcome with a sudden rage, thinking about what they could have been doing (but in all probability weren't). I've had a scotch and it's calmed me down a bit. These moments just creep out of no-where, huh?!
Author californiadreaming Posted January 4, 2009 Author Posted January 4, 2009 We were together 5 years on December 18th - We broke up November 24th - If you trace my story back its pretty amazing, lol! - I will say, I truly appreciate you all here. I send a special shout to DMoney, That dude is my rock, He has honestly help me like no other. It is very true these/those feelings do creep out of no where. I haven't been able to get back on a settle path since last Monday, when she texted me. Since then she has been on my mind constantly. - Prior to that I was on a major roll for a bout a week with very little to no thoughts of her. The wack thing is I begin to do something I haven't done since the break up.. Think about our sex.- Ugh yea.. You guys know what I am talking about. Haven't had sex since Nov. 18th & Don't plan on it unless it is with her. - But at the same time I think it is starting to pop up as before it didn't. So yea everything is crazy. I am so blessed for the job opportunities after a year and 5 months, and I am happy, but at the same time. it's like grrrr. lol- I guess its a part of it all. We'll see what happens next, I have a feeling she will send me an email this week to see if I respond, She is really trying hard to see if I am truly working. - & before you pound me with "move on, don't be waiting for her emails" - "don't go reaching for ghost in the past" and all of that crap, remember I am not waiting for anything .. I am predicting her next move. Big difference.
Joker77 Posted January 4, 2009 Posted January 4, 2009 We were together 5 years on December 18th - We broke up November 24th - If you trace my story back its pretty amazing, lol! - I will say, I truly appreciate you all here. I send a special shout to DMoney, That dude is my rock, He has honestly help me like no other. It is very true these/those feelings do creep out of no where. I haven't been able to get back on a settle path since last Monday, when she texted me. Since then she has been on my mind constantly. - Prior to that I was on a major roll for a bout a week with very little to no thoughts of her. The wack thing is I begin to do something I haven't done since the break up.. Think about our sex.- Ugh yea.. You guys know what I am talking about. Haven't had sex since Nov. 18th & Don't plan on it unless it is with her. - But at the same time I think it is starting to pop up as before it didn't. So yea everything is crazy. I am so blessed for the job opportunities after a year and 5 months, and I am happy, but at the same time. it's like grrrr. lol- I guess its a part of it all. We'll see what happens next, I have a feeling she will send me an email this week to see if I respond, She is really trying hard to see if I am truly working. - & before you pound me with "move on, don't be waiting for her emails" - "don't go reaching for ghost in the past" and all of that crap, remember I am not waiting for anything .. I am predicting her next move. Big difference. It's only natural man. I last had sex with my ex a week before the break up. I had no clue that week later we would be done. Those thoughts enter my mind every so often. I try and replace them with something else. Things will get better. Just stay NC.
Author californiadreaming Posted January 4, 2009 Author Posted January 4, 2009 It's only natural man. I last had sex with my ex a week before the break up. I had no clue that week later we would be done. Those thoughts enter my mind every so often. I try and replace them with something else. Things will get better. Just stay NC. Thanks Joker.. Those thoughts can get you going, lol.. But I have replaced them.
Joker77 Posted January 4, 2009 Posted January 4, 2009 Thanks Joker.. Those thoughts can get you going, lol.. But I have replaced them. Trust me man....I have let my mind get the best of me at times. There have been times where I have thought about her with someone else and it drives me nuts. Then I realize if she does, she does. I could be wrong, but I highly doubt she will find someone that will do the things I did for her such as when her and her daughter were sick with the flu at the same time a week before we broke up, I went to the grocery store to get them things they needed to get better. I basically took care of them. Those are the things that make me realize how I deserve better. When I got sick a week later, she could have cared less. You are better off dude.
Knight_Ctrl Posted January 4, 2009 Posted January 4, 2009 Trust me man....I have let my mind get the best of me at times. There have been times where I have thought about her with someone else and it drives me nuts. Then I realize if she does, she does. I could be wrong, but I highly doubt she will find someone that will do the things I did for her such as when her and her daughter were sick with the flu at the same time a week before we broke up, I went to the grocery store to get them things they needed to get better. I basically took care of them. Those are the things that make me realize how I deserve better. When I got sick a week later, she could have cared less. You are better off dude. Joker you just sent off like a flare in my brain. Do you think its conceaded of us to think that our ex's wont find anyone who'll love us as much as we did? I mean I've found myself telling her that at the breaup, "no one will love you as much as I do". I mean damn, not to far before the break my ex was sick and I drove around for like an hour and a half just looking for ginger ale for her to calm her tummy, then I brought to her house. I've made her dinner......lots of things I dont think this new guy of hers will ever do.
IcemanJB Posted January 4, 2009 Posted January 4, 2009 Hey man, hang in there! I had a similar experience last night. I met a bunch of friends at one of the bars downtown last night. Well after only 1 gin and tonic I started thinking about her and getting really sad...ended up leaving, and at the same time sort of pissing my friends off for not really giving them a good reason why I was leaving. Actually I told my closest friend there why I left, and he totally understood which is cool - he was even trying to set me up with a few cute girls there but I just can't do it yet. This totally caught me off guard; I was so excited to go out, have fun and see everyone...but the thoughts of her just came out of nowhere and ruined everything. Oh well, I'm sure as hell not going to break 40+ days of NC!!! Keep hangin in there; you're not alone!
IcemanJB Posted January 4, 2009 Posted January 4, 2009 Joker you just sent off like a flare in my brain. Do you think its conceaded of us to think that our ex's wont find anyone who'll love us as much as we did? I mean I've found myself telling her that at the breaup, "no one will love you as much as I do". I mean damn, not to far before the break my ex was sick and I drove around for like an hour and a half just looking for ginger ale for her to calm her tummy, then I brought to her house. I've made her dinner......lots of things I dont think this new guy of hers will ever do. The truth is, all guys who truly care about their gfs will do things like this. Chances are another guy will come around and really truly care for her like you have. That's just how it is - just hope she doesn't fall for some d-bag who treats her like crap.
Joker77 Posted January 4, 2009 Posted January 4, 2009 Joker you just sent off like a flare in my brain. Do you think its conceaded of us to think that our ex's wont find anyone who'll love us as much as we did? I mean I've found myself telling her that at the breaup, "no one will love you as much as I do". I mean damn, not to far before the break my ex was sick and I drove around for like an hour and a half just looking for ginger ale for her to calm her tummy, then I brought to her house. I've made her dinner......lots of things I dont think this new guy of hers will ever do. Knight, I don't think it's conceited at all. I know the types of guys she dated before me and they only wanted one thing from her. They could have cared less about anything else in regards to her or her daughter. If that's the type of garbage she wants to bring home as a role model for her daughter, hey have at it. I cared about her daughter. Her own biological father can't say that and neither can the second guy she married.
Tinkerbelll Posted January 4, 2009 Posted January 4, 2009 I won't drink anything..I quit long time ago, realizing I would only feel worst. But tonight I am home as well, reading all your stories, and thinking that my ex is just somewhere having fun. I won't indulge in autocommiseration, it is just a thought about life, circumstances, feelings..I just want to believe that people that are meant to be together just will, someday. Good look all of us.
Dmoney28 Posted January 4, 2009 Posted January 4, 2009 First off, big ups to my boy Cali on his new job prospects. Good job bro. I wish the best to you on moving forward with that part of your life. Thanks fot the kind words homey, you give me stregnth when i read you're post as well. Iceman...40 days NC, Damn, big ups bro. I see you caught the tears from no where, the phantom menace. Dont feel so bad, i caught them New years eve when i spoke to my ex, and she called me by my Nick name...made me miss her even more. I Shed some tears...after like 5 shots of Jose cuevro. 3 Day NC, and i miss her like crazy. Not as bad as a month ago..but i still miss her. I tried NC...it lasted 2 days, lol. She seems to sense when i'm getting stronger through this ordeal, and calls me at weird hours, and wants to talk. So i decided to Quiet things down on my end. I responded with short txt mgs...and she caught on right away. 'whats with the shorthand...thats not like you" she said . So yeah....time to fly under the radar, i'm ready to leave this Limbo at some point soon, lol. Oh yeah...the sex. I had a dream i was trying to talk my ex into having sex. Imagine...at one point in time all i had to do was follow my ex around the house and kiss her behind the ear...and we'd have sex 3 min later. Now i'm at a point where im DREAMING about having sex with her...isnt it Ironic, lol. Its getting bad ....i vowed to be celebate until.. 1. i'm in another committed relationship....2. we get back together. And im not sure option 2 is going to be anytime soon, lol. So guys and Gals be stong and hold steadfast. Mathew24:13...he that endures to the end...is the one that will be saved. The pain does get easier. But you will miss them from time to time...sometimes alot..sometimes a little. But the loss will be there. And remember........."all the guys were right...you're money"
durotto Posted January 4, 2009 Posted January 4, 2009 Joker you just sent off like a flare in my brain. Do you think its conceaded of us to think that our ex's wont find anyone who'll love us as much as we did? I mean I've found myself telling her that at the breaup, "no one will love you as much as I do". I mean damn, not to far before the break my ex was sick and I drove around for like an hour and a half just looking for ginger ale for her to calm her tummy, then I brought to her house. I've made her dinner......lots of things I dont think this new guy of hers will ever do. OK .. I also said the same thing .. and I also added that no one else knows why you smile, when you cry and so on .. what you like, what flowers you love ... so on Do you know what she said ?????? After 4 years of being with someone you should know about it .. and the next person to walk into her life would after staying with her and loving her would automatically know all these stuff ... I mean WTF !!!! Hang on guys !! We need to move on and be stronger.. I think in our minds we play out different scenarios in our minds .. like if she was with me then this would have happened ... and in the end nothing matters except that they no longer have anything for us and we need to move past them ...
Author californiadreaming Posted January 4, 2009 Author Posted January 4, 2009 I'm feeling hella saucy right now! In english it means I am feeling good. - I had it hard last night, I honestly must have cried half the ocean. But I got it out and it feels GREAT! 40+ days is big! Thats some king kong balls. - I mean I know I could do it, but I think if I go that long I'd completely change my numbers, block emails and 100% move on. If I don't hear from her in 30 days then thats a clean hint. Who knows that might be my case! I appreciate the big uppers "D" - I just tell it how it is man. Your a on point dude, and your words have helped me so much. You are truly appreciated.
IcemanJB Posted January 4, 2009 Posted January 4, 2009 40+ days is big! Thats some king kong balls. - I mean I know I could do it, but I think if I go that long I'd completely change my numbers, block emails and 100% move on. If I don't hear from her in 30 days then thats a clean hint. Who knows that might be my case! You're damn right you can do it. And you should. Just a word of advice though, don't expect to be totally over her after 30 days like I did lol. Just take it one step at a time.
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