mm4184 Posted January 2, 2009 Posted January 2, 2009 it's been over 3 months being broken up (last slept together mid-december though) and now we have some kind of unfinished drama where i know something's up but i can't tell because we're not talking. he's been trying to talk to this girl i know but supposedly doesn't like him and i think he may have found out that i know about it. i've felt depressed since july when we started going downhill but when we broke up, it was kind of a relief not to be in limbo anymore. of course i was a mess, but i feel A LITTLE better now. i can get out of bed and i eat and sleep better. still wake up with pain in my heart and aching/longing for what used to be.. still dwell and think about him all the time and wonder what he's doing.. still get jealous that my friends see him and hang out with him because they work together.. still hurts when i see him but i put on a fake front to make it seem like i'm somewhat ok. what i'm asking in this post is that does anyone think it's been too long feeling like crap everyday for 5 months? my therapist told me it's not a bad idea to be on antidepressants because it can speed up the healing although i can probably do without them and it would just take longer.. but i'm terrified of taking them because of the side effects and just because i want to know that i can get through this normally.. but i just really feel ABNORMAL. people keep telling me i'm not going to get better if i don't change my way of thinking but i can't figure out what the hell to do! has anyone taken medication to help or do you guys suggest toughing it out and say that it is normal to still feel this way? i just feel like i should try sometimes and see if it helps.. i just don't wanna be a zombie and have all my feelings numbed. plus, i go out and have drinks sometimes and i'm scared that'll mess me up because of the medication. i just need any kind of help. i feel so lost and helpless and i feel like it'll never end
Eyeofthoth Posted January 3, 2009 Posted January 3, 2009 Medication can take the edge off, give you more energy and help you to focus more on positive thoughts. It is true that there are side effects, but with newer meds these are usually mild and go away once you stop the meds. Six months might be enough time to get over the really rough patch. You could try it and see if it helps, but it is true that you would have to hold off on the alcohol, at least until you see how the meds affect you. If they affect you the way they should though, they are a much better mood lifter than alcohol and you might be perfectly happy sitting at the bar with a club soda. Meds will not turn you into a "zombie" unless you are way over the right dose. At the right dose, you should just start sleeping better and worrying less, crying less, stuff like that.
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