I need to move on ,but I am stuck !!!!!

[me101]

HI , I was with my ex for seven years. We have been broken up now for almost five months. I did not hear from her over the hoildays at all. Also I had a close family member pass away last week and she did not even have the class to call or send an email. She and I go to the same church so I know that she knew about the passing. I guess that not hearing from her was the final straw for me. However I loved her very much and depended greatly upon her for love and support. It seems now that she gave me alot of drive and motivation that I no longer have or at least cant seem to regain. I know that being dumped is a big blow to your ego and self esteem but this seems like so much more than that. I was doing well getting over her but I think that I was looking forward to maybe hearing from her over the hoildays. When that did not happen I really took a dive. I cant focus at work or on just keeping my house clean ( I was a clean freak before). As I mentioned she and I still attend the same church and our familys go there as well. I am thinking of finding some where else to go because she is bringing her new bf with her now and it is really hard to see. I want to be that strong NC guy who acts like he is ok with out her but the truth is , I still love her very very much. I want to call her and tell her or email her but I know that will not give me the result I would want. I am dating and going out with friends but I still think of her every second of the day. I sleep alot because that is the only time i dont think about her. And if I do it is usually a dream where we are back togather. I need to know if this is normal or if there could be something wrong with me. I am 26 and I have broken up with girls before and it was not a big deal. I know that I need to give up and move on so can some one help me out with how to do that. Oh yea if you are going to give me that " the only way to get over some one is to get under some one else" Crap then dont waste your time. I have had about five one night stand offers since the break up and have not taken any of them. I am not that kinda guy. I want to be with some one I love , not just love the one I am with. Thanks for you help every one.