Sure wish I weren't such a whore

[spookie]

I was gonna wait till I found someone I was at least attracted to to mess around again. Random hookups make me feel so empty. Like there's no beauty in the world and even your most intimate moments are boring and meaingless.

 

But last night my friend, Joel, came to visit. We'd dated in high school, and after he got over hating me for dumping him unceremoniously, we stayed in touch. He's in the area to look for a job and do a bunch of drugs for New Years.

 

I've never thought Joel was the greatest love of my life. Even in high school when I was dating, I didn't really give a s!ht. He's really not my type. But I was lonely, and he was a semi-smart, pretty cute guy who'd paid attention to me.

 

I hadn't seen him in over 4 years, but he looked pretty much the same he did when he was 18: dark hair, skinny. Kind of ratty and imperceibtly sickly-looking, like he's on the brink of exhaustion.

 

After the airport, we went to a bar and caught up, which was cool; but then we ran out of things to do and ended up back at my apartment.

 

The place is a slovenly mess. If you've ever seen that Friends episode where Ross can't stand being inside his pig gf's apartment, mine's worse. I live alone and I don't have visitors, and it really doens't bother me, but on the off chance I can't find a way to get rid of someone and they do come in, they're usually quite surprised.

 

I felt a little bad about hosting someone in such a place, so I started thinking of ways to keep us entertained.

 

I challenged him to a gin shot taking competition. 8 shots later, he was plasteredly coming on to me, and I thought, hmm, it would be nice to make out with someone. He kind of smells like barf, and he's so annoying I'm already regretting this, but he's also pretty cute, and he's clearly attracted to me and he's RIGHT THERE.

 

"Joel, go take a shower," I commanded.

 

Even drunk, it was awful. My only thoughts were, "this is funny," and, "what?" The next day I felt crappy, not to mention hung over. I popped a couple of Advil and drove myself to work at 5 in the morning, wishing in the car I'd been with Bill. Thinking how much different it'd have been.

 

But... I don't know. Sexual s!ht is pretty much all the same no matter who you're with, and today I'm a whole lless horny. Normally when I see Jack my only thought is, "Please ravage me upon your desk," but today I could barely imagine having to go through the same old boring motions. As a result, I was way more chilled out, and we ended up having a whole day of those rare non-sexual moments of connection.

 

Maybe there's something to be said about one-night-stands.

 

Poor Joel spent the whole day throwing up.

[Enema]

Hah, got it out of your system so then you were relaxed when you saw Jack.

 

Men do the same thing... (think: jerking off before a date) it's just that because you're a woman you have a "real" alternative anytime you want it.

[letters]

Hah, got it out of your system so then you were relaxed when you saw Jack.

 

Men do the same thing... (think: jerking off before a date) it's just that because you're a woman you have a "real" alternative anytime you want it.

 

pooh... that was a whorish way to get off spookie... you should have used a vibrating dildo video tape yourself coming off of it and screaming "Jack"!!!

[Walk]

HA! I love reading your posts.

 

 

Why does it always seem like a great idea right before sex actual occurs? The sex always sucks.

[Trialbyfire]

I'm laughing and shaking my head at the same time.

 

"He kind of smells like barf.."

[johan]

...and he's clearly attracted to me...

 

Weren't you being a little presumptuous? I mean what evidence did you have?

[JamesM]

 

Poor Joel spent the whole day throwing up.

 

I hope it was only because of the alcohol!

 

pooh... that was a whorish way to get off spookie... you should have used a vibrating dildo video tape yourself coming off of it and screaming "Jack"!!!

 

Nah, she was yelling, "Jack off! Jack off!"

[Yamaha]

Sure wish I weren't such a whore

 

That's a sad way to think of yourself.

A big dose of self-esteem is in order.

[You'reasian]

I was gonna wait till I found someone I was at least attracted to to mess around again. Random hookups make me feel so empty. Like there's no beauty in the world and even your most intimate moments are boring and meaingless.

 

But last night my friend, Joel, came to visit. We'd dated in high school, and after he got over hating me for dumping him unceremoniously, we stayed in touch. He's in the area to look for a job and do a bunch of drugs for New Years.

 

I've never thought Joel was the greatest love of my life. Even in high school when I was dating, I didn't really give a s!ht. He's really not my type. But I was lonely, and he was a semi-smart, pretty cute guy who'd paid attention to me.

 

I hadn't seen him in over 4 years, but he looked pretty much the same he did when he was 18: dark hair, skinny. Kind of ratty and imperceibtly sickly-looking, like he's on the brink of exhaustion.

 

After the airport, we went to a bar and caught up, which was cool; but then we ran out of things to do and ended up back at my apartment.

 

The place is a slovenly mess. If you've ever seen that Friends episode where Ross can't stand being inside his pig gf's apartment, mine's worse. I live alone and I don't have visitors, and it really doens't bother me, but on the off chance I can't find a way to get rid of someone and they do come in, they're usually quite surprised.

 

I felt a little bad about hosting someone in such a place, so I started thinking of ways to keep us entertained.

 

I challenged him to a gin shot taking competition. 8 shots later, he was plasteredly coming on to me, and I thought, hmm, it would be nice to make out with someone. He kind of smells like barf, and he's so annoying I'm already regretting this, but he's also pretty cute, and he's clearly attracted to me and he's RIGHT THERE.

 

"Joel, go take a shower," I commanded.

 

Even drunk, it was awful. My only thoughts were, "this is funny," and, "what?" The next day I felt crappy, not to mention hung over. I popped a couple of Advil and drove myself to work at 5 in the morning, wishing in the car I'd been with Bill. Thinking how much different it'd have been.

 

But... I don't know. Sexual s!ht is pretty much all the same no matter who you're with, and today I'm a whole lless horny. Normally when I see Jack my only thought is, "Please ravage me upon your desk," but today I could barely imagine having to go through the same old boring motions. As a result, I was way more chilled out, and we ended up having a whole day of those rare non-sexual moments of connection.

 

Maybe there's something to be said about one-night-stands.

 

Poor Joel spent the whole day throwing up.

 

We know you are exagerating about Joel's qualities. Its okay to pick up the homeless, no one's judging you.

[laRubiaBonita]

don't be hard on yourself spookie...... you are not the whore- the men are.

 

i used to play this game too- and it is a game- and it is fun and empowering..... what will these men do to get with you again...

 

i was never one to make people jump through hoops or anything major, but just the fact that i could made me laugh.

[You'reasian]

don't be hard on yourself spookie...... you are not the whore- the men are.

 

...says the woman who doesn't date nice, loyal guys

[Ayemtee]

don't be hard on yourself spookie...... you are not the whore- the men are.

 

i used to play this game too- and it is a game- and it is fun and empowering..... what will these men do to get with you again...

 

i was never one to make people jump through hoops or anything major, but just the fact that i could made me laugh.

 

Um I'm pretty sure she's just as much of a whore as the guy she ****ed.

[That Emotion]

"He kind of smells like barf.."

 

No doubt! Talk about a buzzkill. Did the shower help with that? I hope so, otherwise all bets are off. blech!