Author hoartiosans Posted January 2, 2009 Author Posted January 2, 2009 I can't help feeling like I did something wrong. She just gave up on me, I keep thinking to myself, what happened? I loved her, and I thought she loved me, I thought we were in love and happy, I thought we had a great relationship, as young as it was.... Sorry, I'm rambling again, I just feel so crappy right now.
starzphalling Posted January 2, 2009 Posted January 2, 2009 horatio - you could have murdered her puppy, and if she loved you and wanted to be with you would have worked it out. if you didn't cheat, you didn't steal her tv, or try to make out with her brother, you probably didn't do anything warrenting blaming yourself. best you can do is keep venting, and then read my slightly amusing comments back...at least i hope they're slightly amusing...or im going to start crying again...its all i got right now
Author hoartiosans Posted January 2, 2009 Author Posted January 2, 2009 I keep swinging from anger to depression, right now it's anger. How could she string me along all this time, she had to know what she wanted before all this, and judging from what she told me she needed, it was pretty obvious from the beginning I wouldn't be what she wanted (she told me she needs to be with a minister), it's annoying it seems like instead of trying to find love, she's looking for a guy with the right career path to pertain to her fantasy. I just hate that for all this time she was telling me she loved me, and then just dumped me by the wayside like I was nothing at all to her. I didn't even do anything, if I had I don't think I'd be as upset, I've got nothing to lean on, instead I'm just completely dumbfounded as to why this is happening after everything we had, we were happy, never fought and now I'm just at a loss, trying to understand why this happened.
Knight_Ctrl Posted January 2, 2009 Posted January 2, 2009 is it completely ridiculous that I want her back? Hell no it isn't. You loved this girl man, you gave her your heart anyone that ANYONE cares about is going to want them back. The point is you've got to recognize that wanted them back is not needing them back. Instead of getting over her; right now concentrate on being able to not take her back. At the very least, not soon. You can't have her thinking she can crush you and take you back whenever she wants...It would just be bad for you. Funny side note, I'm at work right now and as I type this bit of advice to you my ex's mom walks in, seeing her mom was like getting stabbed in the chest....what business does this having being so painful. =*( Keep strong.
Author hoartiosans Posted January 5, 2009 Author Posted January 5, 2009 It feels like everything she said to me was a lie, all the I love yous, the I miss yous, everything, crap. It makes me so mad that she can just quit on our relationship with no legitimate reason to other than she doesn't think we'll work, how can she know that without giving us a chance. God I'm P.O.'d right now, I'm like swinging from depressed to enraged to missing her, and back to depressed.
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