sdse71 Posted December 29, 2008 Posted December 29, 2008 I've never been one to really post anything about my personal life, but recently, I may have lost a woman who was more important to me than anything in this world. I became blind, prideful, bitter, refused to face myself and take control over certain things in my life. I became so obsessed with trying to make things happen for her that I lost sight of what really mattered to her most and that was us and me. I lost myself along the way. Eventually, I even took what I had in her for granted and forced all the wrong things that shouldn't have been and didn't need to be forced. Therefore, suffocating the life out of it all. When something/someone special comes along, make the most of it and enjoy it one day at a time because it may never come along again. Someone like the woman I took for granted and hurt is impossible to find. Unfortunately for me, I waited too long to open my eyes, truly admit what was going on, and realize what I really had. What I have done to and just as important, failed to do for this very special woman will tear at my heart forever.
saturnfell Posted December 30, 2008 Posted December 30, 2008 Are you looking to rekindle the relationship?
D-Lish Posted December 30, 2008 Posted December 30, 2008 All I can say is that I truly hope the guy I just gave up on someday comes to that conclusion about me. It sounds as if you are venting... but I am wondering if this girl knows how you feel? Have you told her?
Author sdse71 Posted January 3, 2009 Author Posted January 3, 2009 All I can say is that I truly hope the guy I just gave up on someday comes to that conclusion about me. It sounds as if you are venting... but I am wondering if this girl knows how you feel? Have you told her? I already knew what I had in her and knew that we had something really special. I tried to treat her very good, but as I lost myself, due to other things surrounding me, I became blind to some of the things I started doing and didn't do, which was totally out of character for me. At times, especially when we would be out with friends, I became withdrawn and she would ask what was wrong. Instead of telling her, I made excuses like "I'm tired". I was afraid of scaring her off or didn't want to trouble her with it, when all it probably did was make her feel like it was her or just wore on her. There was a little more, but none of it was like the way I really am. Anyway, yes, she knows how I feel and when we broke up, I told her everything about what was going on with me and that I should have had more faith and trust in her to tell her what was happening when she asked what was wrong. Once my eyes were opened, I couldn't believe what I had been doing. In fact, just days before we broke up I finally admitted to myself what I had been doing, that I had lost myself, and that if I didn't say something to her, I would loose her. Unfortunately, I waited too late. This woman is everything that I've ever dreamed of, and I love her with all of my heart. Honestly, I would do anything to get her back. We had everything anyone could ever hope to have in a relationship, except communication. I learned a very valuable lesson in the hardest way I could ever imagine, and it cost me the person that has meant more to me than anyone ever has.
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