fabulousgal Posted December 29, 2008 Posted December 29, 2008 is me. i cracked and broke nc bad move. i was actually happy when i sent him a message telling him it was unfortunate i had been nc for awhile and intiated because he seemed to always dictate the terms, and i wasn't happy, and didn't feel appreciated. i felt like i at least got it out, because i kinda just fell off the map. i get a response 2 weeks later, although i told him he didn't have to...it wasn't mean or anything at all. it still made me feel bad. i don't know what i was expecting from this person. it was a short relationship, that basically ended bc i moved really far away. he didn't want to do it, and frankly i was the only one with the resources (money) to. i prolonged the inevitable by trying to remain in contact. i am so mad at myself for not just moving forward and not looking back. i feel like a foolish person. i realized tonight that i think i am just not happy with the way my life is going (i just relocated back, and haven't figured out where i am going to live, I travel a ton for work so I've been lonely). I am a loving nice lady, I should have just charged forward when I began to not feel appreciated after I moved away. how to fix myself??
lofi_tokyo Posted December 29, 2008 Posted December 29, 2008 For me that fixing started when I actually got SICK of breaking NC. Prior to that moment I knew NC was good, but broke it anyways, because... well I don't know. I knew he wasn't coming back, but I couldn't help myself I suppose. Eventually you'll move on. I think part of that comes from really sincerely wanting to move on, and reminding yourself each day of how you CAN be happy without the ex.
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