hurtnconfused2 Posted December 28, 2008 Posted December 28, 2008 I wrote a couple of days about my boyfriend breaking up with me on Christmas Day to go back to his ex-girlfriend. I've gone over every minute of our relationship looking for clues of this happening. There were none, it was wonderful. After years of keeping my heart out of reach, I let him have it. Now I'm right back to where I was two years ago with my now ex-husband. It makes me feel like such a failure. I can't help but wonder why he choose to go back with someone who cheated on him. So now that I'm home and have some downtime, all I am doing is missing him terribly. I'm crying, thinking of the two of them together, happy, kissing doing what we done only days earlier. I am going out to a nice restaurant with a guy I knew a long time ago. He said I'm more beautiful than he remembers, one would think that would make me smile, instead I swallowed back the tears. I want so badly for my boyfriend to come here and say he made a mistake, I know it won't happen. He's where he is happy. I don't begrudge him that, I just wish it were me that was the one doing that. He touched my heart in such a way that I don't know if I'll ever be able to let anyone else close again. People say time heals, what they don't realize that having been hurt many times leaves you with an empty alone feeling. I am forcing myself to stay off facebook, I know that would only make me feel worse than I already do. Why must an ex-wife, ex-girlfriend always be more than I am. Will my time ever come, and do I even want that. Help
EmperorR Posted December 28, 2008 Posted December 28, 2008 There is someone out there for you don't give up the fight, I know it may seem hard now but trust me. And why would he go back with a cheater hard to say, my ex fiance cheated on me but I can't honestly say right now 100% that if she came back one day remorseful as hell and change that I would say No (). But unlike your ex I would have to be single as I would never dump a great lady to run back to cheating scum. I don't know what else I can tell you but time heals everything, please go full NC, in a few weeks or months when the rose colored goggles come off you'll see him for what he truly is. If he came back would you really want him back? he did it once he may do it again.
Author hurtnconfused2 Posted December 28, 2008 Author Posted December 28, 2008 As I said, I went through this with my husband, hardest time in my life. So I know that time heals, it just really bites that I`m doing it again with the only man I`ve since let in my heart. I won`t contact him at all, that`s not my style, he made his choice I have to respect that. Doesn`t make the hurt easier however. Thank you for your reply.
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