shesmiles Posted December 26, 2008 Posted December 26, 2008 ... i block and unblock you from facebook thinking it'll help me but it doesn't, I see your tiny profile picture but i can't see it large because we aren't friends... you look good i must say, you look very handsome... and everytime i run into your little picture around the website i get this feeling in my stomach like you passed away and i'll never have you again... i know i'll never have you again...my friend told me you were in a relationship again on facebook, and how did i know it'd be the same rebound girl who apparently reminds you of me... the girl we used to play cards with not that long ago, i got curious and went on my friends facebook just to view your profile, i miss your family, your little cute italian mom... i miss you, i miss your touch and i miss your voice so much... i try to imagine what it sounds like in my head but i can't find it anymore... i saw that you use the nicknames on your new girlfriend that you used on me for 3 years, how is that going? what gets me is... doesn't that make you miss me? .. i miss you but you don't see me calling anyone what i called you, i find that to be a tad bit strange... and a little weird, it's like your just asking to be reminded of me... you seem happy, from what i can see which isn't much... i messeged you and told you i'd never bother you again... I've even made new years resolutions for myself, I'll never bother you again... I just want to make it clear that I do miss you, and our anniversary was really hard on me, not as hard as I thought it'd be but it was hard... i'm going upnorth tonight to my dads... the first time since we went this summer... i wonder if it'll remind me of you, because my own house already does... i don't want to think about you while i'm up there... i want to be happy and smile and have fun with my family, but i haven't even left yet and your stuck in my head like a piece of gum to hair...i really want to be happy, and just forget the pain and actually smile when your name is mentioned... somedays i just want you to be happy.. others i wish your life was horrible ... i really hate you ... i'll never forget you , because as much as i hate you ... i love you as well!
EmperorR Posted December 27, 2008 Posted December 27, 2008 Aww I know what your going through, it's good to let it out on here instead of contacting him. It does get better a little bit every day.
saturnfell Posted December 27, 2008 Posted December 27, 2008 Stop looking at Facebook. I don't have a Facebook account... can you totally block someone? I would recommend it. Those internet sites will get you every time!!! Remember when we didn't have a choice but to go to one another house if we wanted to communicate or call on a house phone? I miss those days! Everything is so impersonal now. I'm sorry you're feeling blue. We're here as long as you need us. Keep posting.
openbook08 Posted December 27, 2008 Posted December 27, 2008 you took the words out of my mouth my heart goes out to you good advice from emperorr, keep posting do you really "need" facebook?? i deactivated mine. best thing i ever did. one less way to torment myself. miss those days too saturnfell. after bein dumped by text msg after 5years ... impersonal my h*le cowards
Adri Ana Posted December 27, 2008 Posted December 27, 2008 Keep far from his account,far from him . This is all you can do , and once you decide to end, you will succeed.You just need to decide . It`s the dead point . But you need to to be happy , you know yourself .
jc Posted December 27, 2008 Posted December 27, 2008 I agree with everyone else, deactivating your facebook account is the best thing you could possibly do. I removed my ex and his sister as a friend, but we have 18 other mutual friends, which means it is possible to be 'ambushed' by a comment that he's made on one of their walls at any time. So I decided to deactivate my account as well. I don't even miss going on there, the people that I am truly close with are already in my life, not just on facebook. The less you look at his profile or his little profile picture, the easier it will be to forget and move on. I know how hard this is. I want to do the same thing, go on fb, type in his name just to see his little profile picture. But I just feel sick to my stomach when I do that. And I don't want to hurt myself anymore! Hopefully we'll both figure out how to be strong!
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