A weird pain

[californiadreaming]

First off, Merry Christmas all. - My family is still here, but I am dead tired , and kind of snuck off to lay down, and go to bed.

 

However, I felt it was necessary to explain this weird pain that I have.- For some odd reason, my heart aches - you know the same ache that we normally have when we miss them so much. But, its a different ache. It's a ache of "Man, I miss her bad, and I know that she would normally be on her way here about now." - But, at the same time I have no desire to call, or text her, like I normally would.

 

With that said, for those of you who follow my relation, When we talked on Monday, before we hung up, I told her that it would be nice to hear from her on Christmas, and she said I will be in contact. Well last night about 7:30pm She texted me Merry Christmas to you and your family.- Well I never texted her back, I felt like since she made it very clear that she wanted space, I am going to give her space, not to mention.. On Monday before we got off the phone, I told her that I would send her the name of the 3 books I am reading, well when I sent them yesterday, I said Merry Christmas, so I don't feel bad for not replying to her text.

 

So, although I am sad, and I miss her, I don't want to cry, I don't want to break NC, hell.. I am not answering her texts,or calls until My bday in 3 weeks.(lol - lets see if she evens contacts me before then)

 

I'm off to bed, gonna go do some major shopping tomorrow. - Good night all, be strong!

[Dmoney28]

now you have the right attitude. You are sticking to your guns with the NC. Very good. Lol i broke NC today, 4 days down the drain, lol. I was kinda tricked, she called from a unlisted #. Its cool though, she wants to meet sat. So we'll see how that goes. Havent seen her in over a month. But i am proud of you cali. Kepp up the NC, respect her space and time. She's knows you're trying. Change takes months. But if she see's it here and there, it will help greatly.