FeedingOnFever Posted December 24, 2008 Posted December 24, 2008 Yeah, the title of the thread explains it all. So I guess my ex is now utterly confused regarding his sexual orientation. I guess this would explain something, since I always thought it was so sweet that he got along with gay guys so well and was such a catch since he was so "sensitive..." Hmm. He told me early in our relationship that he went through a confused phase, but when he explained it to me, I told him that I check out girls too, but it doesn't mean I want to kiss them or have sex with them. He totally agreed with me and decided that it was normal. I'm totally thrown for a loop here. Literally two nights ago a good friend of mine warned me that there are rumors that my ex already has a new girlfirend lined up (I HAD seen him heavily flirting with this girl with my own eyes, so I was hurt but not surprised)... and now he might be gay. What? Plus, when I came home from a Yule solstice celebration last night, he was at my house. I sort of believed him when he said he tried to call and couldn't get through, only because my phone has dropped 8 calls in the last 2 days and I keep getting "phantom voicemail." I was totally thrown off by seeing him in my house getting more of his stuff at seeming random. So I made an executive decision. I'm going to take his things personally to the temporary place he is staying at. (He lives in Ewa with his family but he sleeps some nights in a house a few valleys over from mine.) That way his stuff is gone, I don't get any random visits anymore, and he can just take his things at his leisure. Seems like a good plan, so I let him know this via email. I told him in that email that I would send him one more email next Saturday telling him whether or not I was able to move everything to that house or if there were still things left. All I want for Christmas is a guy who is also going through a bad breakup to cuddle with me. We can moan about our loss and keep each other company. Sounds riotously unhealthy, I know. But I'm not ready to have a real relationship and I don't want to lead anyone on... it would be so nice to just have someone there to share stories with, who you don't have to worry about being judged by. Heck, maybe he and I could even get over our miseries and watch crappy holiday flicks and salvage something from this season. Silly wish, but I still would absolutely love that
alwayssme Posted December 25, 2008 Posted December 25, 2008 lol...yeah i'm spending the holidays just watching drama and soap operas...it kind of gets me away from my reality...which sucks i feel lonely yet so not ready for a relationship...i cant even look at another guy like that...and since nobody in my life is going through a tough time right now...it feels good to just get lost in tv shows who are lol i will alwayd remember this as my sad, pathetic/reality escaping holiday season
Author FeedingOnFever Posted December 25, 2008 Author Posted December 25, 2008 You know what movie I'm really enjoying right now? Home Alone 2. I also want to see the first one again. There isn't any romance in them, but they still fill the holiday quota What are you watching?
alwayssme Posted December 25, 2008 Posted December 25, 2008 I remember the first few weeks of my break-up..I kept on watching comedy and things that had nothing to do with love... I'm watching Gossip Girl...rented the series since I have missed the last episodes...lol have you ever seen that show?
Author FeedingOnFever Posted December 25, 2008 Author Posted December 25, 2008 I haven't seen it yet I'll see if I can rent it online and check it out. I talked to my lesbian friend on the phone the other night and she and I were peicing together clues about my ex's possible closeted homosexuality. It was half funny (because it's just a rumor and I have no clue if he's confused or really gay) but also half scarily accurate. So now I've decided that if he does turn out to be gay, I'll only be a little surprised. I'll also not be surprised if he's just straight and confused, or bi. With that guy anything is possible, I swear. Freakishly enough, I kinda hope he is gay. Then at least there is NOTHING I could have done to save our relationship, short of growing some extra anatomy by magic. O_O I'm very weirded out by all of this. I think my life has become a TV series that would get some pretty high ratings.
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