Joker77 Posted December 24, 2008 Posted December 24, 2008 and then end on a downer? I was feeling great all day until the afternoon. Then I started thinking about my ex. Aghhhhh! Why do I want her to call me and admit she screwed up? Why the hell is that so important to me? Oh yeah...my stupid ego.
DSM-IV Tom Posted December 24, 2008 Posted December 24, 2008 It's okay my friend. Those feelings are natural. You don't have a huge ego. You just want to have the emotions you invested in someone, returned. Nothing selfish about that. (At least not from the way you described it. Feel free to go more in depth). You don't think I want my ex to admit she screwed up? All these people who still love their ex's, want their ex's to admit that. ****. Now I'm with you.
Author Joker77 Posted December 24, 2008 Author Posted December 24, 2008 It's okay my friend. Those feelings are natural. You don't have a huge ego. You just want to have the emotions you invested in someone, returned. Nothing selfish about that. (At least not from the way you described it. Feel free to go more in depth). You don't think I want my ex to admit she screwed up? All these people who still love their ex's, want their ex's to admit that. ****. Now I'm with you. I think it's because I invested time and feelings into this and thought we were on the same page. There have been times where I want to pick up the phone and call her and then I realize I would lose any power I have left. Regardless, for ego's sake I would love to have her call me one day and say she made a mistake.
hoartiosans Posted December 24, 2008 Posted December 24, 2008 I'm going through a breakup right now too. I watch my phone every day waiting for her to tell me she made a mistake, or at least tell me she's sorry. Honestly I hate her right. I know how you feel. I was happy all day too but like old faithful those feeling came back up to slap me down again.
Ronni_W Posted December 24, 2008 Posted December 24, 2008 I would love to have her call me one day and say she made a mistake. Hugs, Joker. More a personal question, but maybe it'll facilitate something for you, too (whatever that 'something' may be...I do not know.) How would you feel if she said that there are SOME things about her relationship with you that she misses but that, no, she didn't make a mistake? Would that info leave you feeling better, or worse, or the same?
ATR Posted December 24, 2008 Posted December 24, 2008 Haha, i know exactly how you feel. Start of the day, "wow im actually really happy." End of the day. "Why? whyyy? I miss her so much" As for waiting for her to call... i have found myself doing that too, really need to get out and do something.
Knight_Ctrl Posted December 24, 2008 Posted December 24, 2008 Ugh, for me its like a rollercoaster I wake up feeling horrible. Get better till about late afternoon, usually lose it and cry for an hour or so and then be ok again until just before I go to sleep. Just in time to keep me awake. We need like a loveshack convention.
Author Joker77 Posted December 24, 2008 Author Posted December 24, 2008 Hugs, Joker. More a personal question, but maybe it'll facilitate something for you, too (whatever that 'something' may be...I do not know.) How would you feel if she said that there are SOME things about her relationship with you that she misses but that, no, she didn't make a mistake? Would that info leave you feeling better, or worse, or the same? It would probably make me feel worse. And plus, she's too stubborn to admit she made a mistake. She did what she felt was right for her. I just wish she hadn't strung me along for as long as she did.
FindingMyselfAgain Posted December 24, 2008 Posted December 24, 2008 and then end on a downer? I was feeling great all day until the afternoon. Then I started thinking about my ex. Aghhhhh! Why do I want her to call me and admit she screwed up? Why the hell is that so important to me? Oh yeah...my stupid ego. Please be more gentle and loving with yourself. Ego is an annoying gnat, but it is not WHO WE ARE, and I don't ever need to identify myself as my ego. In my case, my ex- actually DID screw up, and threw away a pretty decent guy (me) for an ex-con and currently active crackhead. Yet I know she will never call me, trying to come back, admitting she made a mistake. I am very glad she won't ever try. I hate to turn people away. I'd do it but I'd hate it.
Author Joker77 Posted December 24, 2008 Author Posted December 24, 2008 Please be more gentle and loving with yourself. Ego is an annoying gnat, but it is not WHO WE ARE, and I don't ever need to identify myself as my ego. In my case, my ex- actually DID screw up, and threw away a pretty decent guy (me) for an ex-con and currently active crackhead. Yet I know she will never call me, trying to come back, admitting she made a mistake. I am very glad she won't ever try. I hate to turn people away. I'd do it but I'd hate it. It sucks because I really love her daughter. I was planning on buying her a Christmas gift because I knew she wasn't going to have a really good Christmas this year. The poor kid hasn't had a positive male influence in her life at all.
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