ResTechof3 Posted December 22, 2008 Posted December 22, 2008 This is from the thread of finding gay porn. I don't know if he has been on the computer lately but the history has no evidence of porn. Then again he may be getting wise and erasing the history. As I had stated in my post on the other thread....I do have to go on record and say that about 2 months ago my H had been hospitialized for celulitis and vasculitis in his leg. The infection was so bad that his temp was almost 106. He has been in alot of pain and just recently had surgery on his leg to have a lymp node taken out to be biopsied...results came back neg for anything. I have to be fair and tell you the whole thing not just the parts that I feel you should know. He has been in pain and is taking hydrocodone and muscle relaxer at bedtime. H has said that he has no desire...its not me its how he is feeling right now about his situation and how he feels about himself. He just recently lost 170 pounds and has some personal issues with loose skin and the such going on. The part that bothers me the most is the fact that he is looking up G porn and not talking to me about it. I am his W and he should feel he can talk to me about it. I do have to say that our sex life was great up until the fight we had 4 months ago...he changed overnight and became someone I didnt know. He has told me that he knows that "things" are different and that he is doing the best he can right now. I am not happy with what he is giving. Yes I have told him that, he has told me that he is giving what he can. He goes from this sweet guy I know minus the affection ( hugging , kissing unless intiated by me) to this person who becomes cold and callous back to neutral. I think what I am going to do after the holidays so that Christmas is not ruined for the boys is go get a hotel room and bring him there and have a true, noholds barred, open and honest talk. We need to talk and see where things stand and if there is a marriage to save. He keeps telling me that he wants to work out what he needs to by himself. He needs to do it his way. I have mentioned MC and he flew into a lil rampage. Today I bought him his Christmas gift a pomeranian, he was happy for most of the day. When I was getting ready for work he went into his quiet mode and wasn't real talkative after that. He went from nice to cold. So here we are and Im still wonderin what to do...I have had an opprotunity to have an affair of my own...won't do anything like that. I will have the talk with him and then decide from there.
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