kreens Posted December 21, 2008 Posted December 21, 2008 i guess im having a really hard time this weekend with the NC and need some revving up to help me. My daughters are at their dads and my house is a mess but i have no motivation to clean it. Im so tired of feeling exhausted!!!!!!!!! I hate being home because my ex is my neighbour and i can see every move that he makes (which is not alot - he is home most evenings and weekends). I still like him alot.. what the hell is wrong with me. After the way i acted after our breakup he wanted no contact or friendship... maybe in 6 months. 6 months eeekkk. i know i acted so stupid but its nearly been a month of no contact (only a few txt msgs to which he has replied to some) and i would have thought his anger had subsided at least a little. Mind you his parents are no longer living - and he has not spoken to his sister for 2 years (over a minor fallout). He has serious commitment issues because of his parents dying, but i knew this when we got 2gether.. ive got 2 more days until my daughters come back - thank god im working and just have to deal with the weekends... god this is a nightmare, i feel i have to go out all the time to stop hurting so much... it is more the fact that he no longer speaks to me and is 10 metres away. After such an intense month of seeing each other, its so hard to think that he hates me so much after telling me he was falling in love with me and had never felt this close or comfortable with a person... i really really want to call him (im too scared to go over there as i dont want a scene)..... its christmas and i wish that we could at least be civil. i cant afford to move... that is not an option... help xx K
Jay34 Posted December 21, 2008 Posted December 21, 2008 did you only date him for one month in total ?
Author kreens Posted December 21, 2008 Author Posted December 21, 2008 yes it was 1 month.. we both feel pretty hard... but gosh i feel a bit pathetic now....
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