justdoe Posted December 20, 2008 Posted December 20, 2008 once again I have to put my feelings in a POEM ]It's been a bad year 3 times’ I have taken a load of pills 1 time I looked at the dogs and tried to vomit them back up 2 times. well...........It just didn’t take 3 days sleep. That’s all that came of it Dumped, smashed, stomped, and trashed Jumped off the face of the earth crying. no hunger. hating all of what is left of me Gaining, losing, gaining, and losing everything Smashing a bike into 5 trees Broke some ribs. Busted a leg Didn’t really matter Just threw that damn helmet on the ground Screamed so loud. My motto. "Son of a Bitch" No one heard. That loud can't penetrate moron’s ears A few occasions I had access to the "brown bag" Could I do it? Oh yes I could But why didn’t I? Cause I can’t "clean" myself up! Old, fat, ugly. That is what I see I failed myself Thieves, liars, and manipulators surround me I cry. This is what the dregs are feeding on Me The Failure wanna strangle the short shorts, high socks one But he is a brother to others, and to another he is their son Getting over on me is simple Just take whatever you want Stab me in the front and back I am a failure Overcome with new found morals Me is no more I am a vessel of failure Not a heaven or a hell Excess serotonin is where I dwell It’s been a bad year Horrid. Vivid. Sick My actions are my fear I AM NOT GOING TO KILL MYSELF! I am So hurt, scared, betrayed, angry, HAS ANYONE ELSE FELT LIKE WHEN THEY CHANGED FOR THE BETTER THEM, WEAKNESS AND NEW MORALS WERE A TARGET FOR OTHERS TO PLAY WITH?? be honest PLEASE HELP ME. I was dumped. Betrayed by my BFF after 8 years. Rapped in my room. 5'8 1/2 at under 100lbs and I wiped on a 386lb street bike. I HAD NO BRAKES. WHY ALL THIS IN SUCH A SHORT TIME PERIOD??????/////
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