zilverenvlinder Posted December 18, 2008 Posted December 18, 2008 But for some reason, the thought of him being with another girl drives me absolutely insanely up a wall. I just dread the day when I find his My Space and some ugly hoesbag is clogging up his picture profile. Or even worse, if I run into him with some chick at a bar. I think the only thing that can possibly cure this fear is me having someone to hang out with who is better looking than he is, just so he can see me out with him. I don't even know where to begin to meet guys though! The want to go out to the bar is clouded by my fear of running into him with another girl! Where the heck!! am I supposed to meet guys? I'm not shy, but I would rather stand in front of a truck than flirt with anyone.
FeedingOnFever Posted December 23, 2008 Posted December 23, 2008 I saw that this didn't have any replies... strange. Are there other bars you could frequent, a little farther away from his hangout spots where you wouldn't have to be afraid of running into him and any girls he might be with? Having girl friends to go with seems like it would help too. I just went to a bar the other night and gave eyes to the lead singer of the live band all night... what's great is he gave eyes back too XP It was a big boost to my ego even though I didn't want anything to come of it. I think getting out and just having fun would be good for you. I also can't stand the idea of my ex with someone else. I'm still working on the "not wanting him back" part, but I'm getting angier and angrier at him every day, so I guess it should get easier soon. How often is your ex out and about? Would you really run into him at every street corner (like, is he a total wild party animal)?
Knight_Ctrl Posted December 23, 2008 Posted December 23, 2008 yeah, I'm not sure where in human thought processes the need to feel jealous comes from. I'm not calling anyone here jealous people but I think we can all agree it hurts for a long time to think about our ex with another person. Now do I care about who my ex from last year or even before that is with? Hell no. At what time does this feeling fade though? I don't remember waking up one day thinking of my ex from last year banging another guy and not feeling anything for it. My point is, when are we truly over our ex. Is it when we no longer desire them back? Is it when we can think of them with other people and don't care?.......who knows, I sure as hell don't. But I can agree that it really does help me to get out see other girls and notice when I get looked at. Not a whole lot else helps me feel better like that, even if I don't say anything to them.
Author zilverenvlinder Posted December 23, 2008 Author Posted December 23, 2008 Yes, he is a drunkard. The worst part is that after I wrote that post, I went back to our apartment (my stuff is still all there, I have to move it by the 1st) and there was some girl all over our answering machine. Real classy, five days after we break up and already calling up girls. I know it sounds mean and sadistic of me, but he has treated me terribly and I just don't ever want anything good to happen to him. I don't think I want him back anymore. It just seems like I'm on a downward spiral and he, with all of his lying and cheating and selfishness and just plain meanness, keeps getting everything he wants (promotions, company sponsored trips, girls apparently falling all over him according to the phone messages). I mean, I'm not an angel or anything, but I certainly was GREAT to him. I hope someday he realizes that. I just am wondering where the JUSTICE is.
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