hereandnow Posted December 17, 2008 Posted December 17, 2008 I am feeling really depressed tonight. Ran into my ex again tonight. This makes 4 out of the last 5 days! She's been showing up at places she hasn't shown up since the 2 months after the breakup. Places she knows that I go to. That's what got my hopes up, and probably why I'm feeling like c*** tonight. For some reason tonight it just really got to me. I've fallen into a bad sleep cycle since Friday. I had my last exam and took a long nap after. Since then the earliest I've woken up is 3:30 pm! I woke up at 5 pm today! This is really taking its toll and I'm feeling really depressed right now. I was trying to sleep but I figured I'd get back up. I ran into my ex at 6 today, only an hour after I finally rolled out of bed. I guess that's kind of strange in itself. I'm thinking that I might need to talk to her tomorrow and just see what's going on. I don't think right now I can take too many more of these encounters back to back. When we ran into each other on Saturday we said we ought to catch up with each other, but neither of us has gotten in touch yet (outside of these random and suddenly frequent encounters). I might add that these have always been with groups of other friends and acquaintances around so not really a good time to talk about anything personal. Should I talk to her about how this makes me uncomfortable, etc. We both go to the same type of meetings, this is where we run into each other. One more thing, she is a very understanding and caring person, I know she still cares about me a lot so this stuff is not going to bounce off of deaf ears. Thanks for any help. Hopefully I can break this s***ty sleep cycle! Oh, and I just found out she is now on Facebook! Thank God I'm not! Yet another form of contact to avoid. ARRRRGGH
BikerBeagle Posted December 17, 2008 Posted December 17, 2008 The way I see it, you have 2 choices ...stop going to those places you are likely to meet up with her, or face the fact that you might have to deal with the situation while seeing her once in a while. Talking to her abut how "uncomfortable" you feel is definitely a bad idea ...what are you really going to be able to tell her? ..."you need to stop coming to places I might be because I'm uncomfortable"? Be serious, she'll laugh in your face. She's "randomly" and "suddenly" coming to places to you might be because she is over you and able to deal with seeing you on a friendly basis. Obviously, the two of you share the same social circle. It's patently unfair for you to ask her not to see those people, have fun, and move on because you can't handle your emotions. Sleep disorders, the lack of or increase of, is a common effect of depression. Deal with that and your normal patterns will return.
Author hereandnow Posted December 18, 2008 Author Posted December 18, 2008 Thanks for the reply BikerBeagle. Yeah the calling her and telling her about me being uncomfortable is definitely a bad idea, not because she would laugh in my face, but strictly for the emasculating value alone. I really don't feel the same way I did when I posted originally. It was almost 3 in the morning when I did. What with the onset of this depression (it's only been a few days of it) along with the strange sleep pattern, it's real easy for me t get my wires crossed. I actually will probably see her again tonight as it's a friend of mine's occasion and I really shouldn't miss it just because she would be there. Any more replies are appreciated! I'll undoubtedly be up late/early tonight!
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