alone_confused Posted December 16, 2008 Posted December 16, 2008 It has officially been 3 weeks since my ex of 3 and 1/2 years broke up with me, and 2.5 weeks of NC, I have been doing okay, trying to get my life back in order and learning to be single again.. I still think about my ex everyday, sometimes it makes be feel sad and lonely and other times i feel angry and glad, you all know how it goes Well i thought I'd try the rebound sex thing tonight, i thought being wanted and desired might make me feel better, a selfish ego boost, might help me forget him quicker, show me what i have been missing etc, araahhh it was completely horrible, i was there but i wasn't there if you know what i mean, i just keep thinking hurry up and be over, even felt like crying at one stage, it was uncomfortably, kind of rough, and completely emotionless, so not like it was with my ex. i know i shouldn't compare two people but i can't help it, it made me miss him so much more than i was, when it was over i got up, got dressed and left when i got home i had a 30minute shower, i feel so dirty, cheap and slutty and believe it or not, guilty as if i was cheating or something. God what have i done, why am i feeling so bad, I just can't get my head around it all, sorry for the confusing post, i just had to vent and release some of this guilt and disgust I'm feeling about myself and my actions. :(
Meaplus3 Posted December 16, 2008 Posted December 16, 2008 Alone, First of all your not stupid your hurting. Three weeks into a break up is not very long. It takes time to get over the hurt and pain of a realtionship that did not work. So, you made a mistake here your only human. Try to focus on what you can do for yourself to put the R behind you. Hobbys, Girlfriends, family.. rely on them to help keep your mind off your x. Most important, take the time that YOU need to heal. Best Wishes. Mea:)
Artu Posted December 16, 2008 Posted December 16, 2008 Do not feel guilty . You are confused and hurt . Your reactions are 'normal' . Many had felt same . The only advice is to think twice before you do something , even in revenge. Not everything you will do ,will make you feel well . Take your time and you will get healed . Time is on your side . Best of luck to you !
wowIlose Posted December 16, 2008 Posted December 16, 2008 Consider it a lesson learned. We all make mistakes like that. Take time for yourself - 3 weeks is just not enough time to expect anything from yourself. I know at 3 weeks I was still a complete mess. With enough time things do get better, but give yourself that time. You have to take baby steps and eventually you'll be fine. Good luck.
Author alone_confused Posted December 17, 2008 Author Posted December 17, 2008 Thanks for the replies, yes I do see how i rushed into it, I kind of knew that at the time, but i thought, If i push myself it will confirm to me thats its over, yes silly way to think, But i've learnt my lesson.
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